i've decided not to care and not to try. everytime i do, things get messy. no more relying on ice skating to make things okay (wait, im not at camp so drinking), no more angsting from the sidelines, and no more ... i dont know quite how to describe it... pretending? that doesnt seem quite right, but whatever. its time for a few truths ( Read more... )

fuck you! leave me alone!

a great song, but also a very accurate description at the moment.

i had a kickback/thing last night. i got pretty drunk, and now i'm really wishing i hadnt talked as much as i did or that the people i said that shit to realized that i wasnt just spouting shit and i actually meant it.

i hate rationalizing.

I'm vaguely wondering why i'm continuing to fill this out. maybe its out of a lack of having anyother place to sort things out mentally but oh well. i dont think anyone really reads this anymore since most of my friends have either forgotten about their livejournals or have deleted them so i can be as honest as i want to be. the only person who ( Read more... )

camp starts later today...and i cant sleep...shit.

my cousins and i decided to have a kickback today. dont know when it going tp be and im not sure if i wanna invite camp friends or school friends. or mix the 2. hmm...that idea has promise. wow...i really should be sleeping right now. hey. its ashley's birthday today. and chris's. and annie s.'s.

regular= 07/30/05
bold and stuff = 06/21/07

THIRTEEN THINGS YOU LOVE (or like a lot):
1. Tumbleweed
Tumbleweed and LVHS
2. Truth or Dare
parties where we play truth or dare
3. Pictures in a Bowling Alley
my new camera so i can take my own damn pictures
4. Ice Cream
does that really ever change?
5. Big Sticks (the popscicle)
not so much a fan anymore. still ( Read more... )

wow, i havent been on live journal in so long. i was considering deleting it but im not really sure i want to anymore ( Read more... )

its been awhile! i assure you i am still alive. but then again, those of you who care know that. i think. owell. im still just as confused. not much has been happening. just swim meets and 12.15 and 12.30 stalking in a rounabout way. thats about it.
( QUIZ RESULTS!! )

gurges!!! i miss you!!!!
12.45!!!!!
butbut!!!
donco!!!
womboci!!!!
faggot get away, you've got hip pants.
peel my banana cuz 12.30's got a folded watter bottle. i hope 12.15's got a big water bottle too. wannabe wants to makeout with the ugly guy and tan water is still gross looking and a man slut. go fuck a monkey.

its name would be free willy.
rachel wants your creamy secretions. its true. she told me so.
mr. wilson made me partner with the ugly guy! ewww!!! then he moved me up a lane. dammit!!!