Well what can I say. Life has been crazy as all hell.
A lot has changed.
I do not feeling powerless anymore. Life is hard and will continue to be so but, I am growing stronger and learning to work with what I have.

So Im sitting here and I'm wondering, aren't I smarter then this? I know this isn't right, this isn't how my life is suppose to be....however after a few years of slowly getting ground down, I've lost a lot of my strength and power to make things change to my benefit. I'm not happy, and I haven't been for awhile, last time I tried to change things ( Read more... )

I dumped him...........oh fuck what did i do ?! SHIT

Learning to make Sushi tomorrow! Watch out bizzniches ! Missin my girl Ashley, if u read this I miss u !!!! *Loves* Was remembering playing that Super Smash Brothers game at your place.....ahhh memories, was so much better then homework lol.

Well over the Halloween weekend I decided to act my age and have some fun. On Friday dressed up as a pirate ( and a damn sexy one if i do say so myself haha) and went out with my gf Sam, we hit up the Hilltop and the Twin, she ditched out early and I kept partying it up with other chicka's I knew that were out. I had a great time just being happy ( Read more... )

Well I'm sure not good at keeping a journal! Well tomorrow Im suppose to be moving into my new place, me and Jeff are renting a half a duplex, its pretty snazzy, our new landlord has been renovating it for us for the last 2 weeks. We have a roomie, who is just perfect, gonna be off in camp most the time, and seems like a very polite man. I have the ( Read more... )

So........was in PR again, wasn't quite as much fun this round. Non-the-less was a beautiful thing to uplift myself from the rut I've been in and leave town for a few days. Had a nice walk out at Ridley Island......managed to bang up my knee pretty good slippin on the seaweed stuck to the rocks by the ocean tho. Lost my beach feet I guess, I ( Read more... )

well havent been on here in awhile. thought i would check in and say a lil something......well last september i got to visit with my long standing best friend Leigh, we had a blast. Did a trip to Prince Rupert...which was painfully close to home. Had a visit with our buddy Jaylene, had a blast playing Wii and hanging out at her place. Another ( Read more... )

Ok so he wasnt that nastiest shit ever.......actually he was someone i was crushing on for awhile........and again it blew. It was again bad and uncomfortable and awkward when it came right down to it. I mean wtf is wrong with these guys am i that ugly ? Can't they just imagine a hotty and whatever and just do me good ?! Gawd. What is with me ( Read more... )

Ok so maybe I didnt give up enough. And as much as I didnt want anything out of it I did something stupid last weekend, and expected him to be respectful about it. But hey when has a guy ever just let me feel good about myself ? Nah then the next time I talk to him he hasnt told anyone about what happened, so he's embarrassed, and then he asks me ( Read more... )