I told myself that the inevitable crash was worth the happy feelings I haven't experienced in months.
It probably wasn't. But that's life and if I'm back to where I started, I haven't lost much.
And it's a good life, overall. I have so much.

It would be nice if he would stop being so damn cute, though.

When I walked into Walgreen's today, the radio sang "When you're all alone, far away from home, someone's gonna flirt with you." And even though the rest of the song didn't apply, I thought maybe it could be a sign.
I don't know whether to regard visions of next fall as completely terrifying or something to live on until I get there.

This was a rather horrible day, I realized I had a blacklog of work, but I didn't realize just how hard it was going to be to finish. And it was hard and I kept having crying panic attacks and even a coffee/cookie from Peet's wasn't helping.
But then I made a super strength pot of my mother's pesto (an entire bag for one serving of noodles) and it ( Read more... )

This weekend I went to the DeYoung with Dana and Derek and Michael to see King Tut. I love going to that area. We ate in the Haight at Cha Cha Cha, which was delicious, as always. We split a pitcher of sangria, which may not have been the best decision for my head, but was yummy. The exhibit was very interesting, and then we got to go see the ( Read more... )

Dear Virginia ( Read more... )

I found this IM exchange way too amusing:

Michael (5:35:47 PM): touched thesis today?
jadedauteur (5:36:35 PM): Touching it now. Not very successfully.
Michael (5:36:47 PM): it's not very sticky
jadedauteur (5:37:07 PM): Touching my thesis sounds vaguely dirty.
Michael (5:37:26 PM): hah
jadedauteur (5:38:15 PM): It must be very frustrated. I don't touch ( Read more... )

Today I met with my thesis advisor to go over my latest draft, where I thought I FINALLY had some kind of argument. It thoroughly depressed me. He made his little “Hmmmm” noise at the beginning, which means that he has reservations (Me: “That’s not a good sound, is it?”) and started pointing out flaws in what I thought was a good argument. I ( Read more... )

For someone who has been indulging in an occasional glass of wine since she was sixteen (and whose boyfriend teasingly calls her the alcoholic just because she likes to have a  single drink every night with dinner), I am shockingly bad at opening wine bottles. The kitchen is littered with bits of cork from my latest attempt. But I did not actually ( Read more... )

Marguerite to me about thesis, today: “Your close readings make me remember why I love to read and write.”
I need to remember this for when I start hating the work. Like now.
Also, cracked out on caffeine at 5 PM. Mmm. It's going to be a fun night.

1.) Where did you ring in 2008?
Santa Cruz, as usual. With Liz, and we were finally old enough to ring it in bars (though we also did the crazy free parade and a movie downtown, just like two years ago J).

2.) What was your status by Valentine's Day?
Last year’s answer: More comfortable and confident in this love than I ever thought I could be ( Read more... )