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[jadedcynic]

It hurts so much to watch a relationship die. To struggle to hold on to something, to know that you have to let it go. To see someone you love walk away, and know that you'll never get to hold them again. To want so badly to beg them never leave you, when you know that it hurts you worse when they stay

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[southernbangel]

Oh, sweetheart. *cuddles you close* I'll be on tonight so we'll talk then, okay?

Take a deep breath, you can do this. You can get through this. I know you can.

[jadedcynic]

I don't want to. *sobs* I just want to curl up and shut the world out. Why does anybody fall in love? This hurts so fucking bad. How could God have let me fall in love with a married man? I tried to walk away from him before, when it would have hurt less, and we kept getting pushed back together. If He helps those who help themselves, why didn't He keep us apart when I begged Him to help me move on? Why did He let me get to the point where the suffering is so immense that I can't stand it?

I'm bitter, and I'm angry, and I keep crying, and it doesn't change anything. I just want it to all go away.

[jaguar83]

*hugs*

I'm not going to tell you any of those things. I just want to say that- time heals. Cry now, let it all out, and remember the good things. The hurting will go away, I promise.

[edgechick816]

*hugs you*

You're right, I could tell you that he doesn't deserve you, and I probably wouldn't be wrong. But it doesn't matter right now, because right now, you're at the part where you have to be strong and you don't want to. I could tell you that love is what keeps us alive, but it's killing you right now. What I won't tell you is to stop crying if you're not ready to. One day, you won't need to cry anymore.

Be angry, be bitter, scream if you want to. You can still do this, it hurts, but you can.

If you wanna talk, I'll be on later tonight.

[crayonbreakygal]

**sends out hugs to you**

Everything you said in your post is true. That's exactly what it feels like now. It will get better. I know that's no consolation, but it does. As someone else said, scream, punch a pillow, cry, do everything or anything you would like to do to help with all this.

Just remember that you mean something to all of us. Take care!

[sarakat]

*hugs you hard*

Sweetie, I wish I was there so I could hug you in person. And use this handy bag of sugar

I'm thinking about you and I'll be online tonight for awhile if you want to talk. *hugs again*