yea so anyhow i dunno what the fuck is going on in my head but i know if i dont find someone soon im just gonna shut down and in the last 3 months ive managed to encounter only one person that i know i could really love. but they dont know who they are and i dont think i will ever tell...all the other gurls i meet just seem like they "couldnt" love ( Read more... )

i ate megans meat..;)

blah i dunno whats up with me right now. i just feel really alone for some reason ( Read more... )

oh yea to everyone that reads my journal the gurl on my friends list "pencilpolice"
yea tonight was her b-day so yall need to leave her b-day wishes in her comments ...i want her to feel special cause she is ;) to me ....

twisting moonlight into dreams i bled dry ( Read more... )

so yea i have this stupid little problem A FUCKING BUG IS IN MY EYE and i cant get it out god jesus someone help me......anyhow my week has been going pretty well. i spent the first 1/2 of it drunk and i found a new supa kewl place to chill....meetin alott of kewl people and i get new names to put on my friends list...and for the first time in a ( Read more... )

i cant wait till im not fat so that i can finnaly do a suicide suspension its gonna be beautiful..........worked 10 hours today and im pretty tired...visited kayal (shes teh best)....and tomm me and holly are seeing a movie she fucking rawks...anyhow not enough happened today to write about so .....sweetdreamz everyone....... and yes my new s/n is ( Read more... )

in·fat·u·a·tion.
A foolish, unreasoning, or extravagant passion or attraction. See Synonyms at love.
An object of extravagant, short-lived passion.

it all makes so much sence now and i feel so free...... i see that i wasnt anything special to begin with and its so so easy to accept this... it was just infatuation and im glad i realized this before i said to much or went to far.......its like a fresh breath of cold air...but dont worry im still gonna be around for you.....oh ans sry im so god ( Read more... )

so yea i know its been a few days but it dosent matter cause i dont think anyone reads this any how?. so yea this whole week kinda sucked..for some reason i got the one person that i hardly see on my mind and ive got mixed feelings about it cause i told myself not to let this happen ever again.....went to see coheed on thurs.. seriuosly rocked ( Read more... )