Like seriously, and I had that feeling more than once, especially as Earth!Tyrol was strolling through the marketplace.
I know things were pretty dire when we last saw our show, but, geez, I feel like this one really loaded us up with another 20 lbs of gloom.
Some quick and random thoughts:
** There was so much Dee in the first 20 minutes, I thought for sure something was up (like maybe she was the cylon-to-be-revealed). And though I never hated her (as much as I hated the contrived Lee/Dee pairing), I disliked that she got to be the one to put Lee back on course in this episode, and I body-shuddered when I thought that Lee would be weak enough to go back down that road with her again. While I was shocked at her blowing her brains out, a good chunk of me cheered because now we don't have to endure Lee/Dee v2.0. Oh, and the jacks aren't a bit radioactive?
** Everyone - and I mean everyone - seems to have lost any hope of a future and moped around. Except Sharon and Helo - which was encouraging to see that the parents of a real child (vs Adama/Laura, the surrogate parents of 36,000+ children) continue to live life and play and joke.
** Are they ever going to run out of booze and etched octagonal glass bottles?
** Oh Kara. First you find out that you are really dead. And then you realize that you don't know what you are. And then Leoben - who has always professed to practically worship the ground you walk on - runs away from you in fear. And then you struggle alone in the dark to build yourself a funeral pyre, and literally hide the evidence of what you found out. And then you make the monumental decision to confide in Lee. (YAY!!!) But then you see how much he is suffering over the useless loss of his ex-wife, and you change your mind. So you are all in this alone. I hope you can work your courage back up to telling him next episode.
** Human/cylon alliance. Doesn't have a nice ring to it, and I don't think it's going to end well. (Don't spoil me!) Dum-de-dum-dum-DUMMMMMMM!
** Lee needs a hair cut.
** I'm really, really surprised at Adama. Yes, he fell apart when he found out about Tigh. And I don't think that was so much about Tigh, as much as it was a chain of events culminating in finding out about Tigh (skin to the final piece of straw breaking the camel's back). However, he's always been the strong one - and a strong parent to his fleet (except a lousy father to Lee) and for him to totally break again; whether it was because it took him months/years to believe in Laura and she broke, or because one of his favourite surrogate daughters blew her brains out, or whatever. He really disappointed me. His frakking ship is falling to pieces around him, and he is being a selfish bastard in attempting to play suicide-by-ex-best-friend-who-is-now-a-cylon.
** Am I surprised about Ellen being the 12th cylon? Well, I'm happy it's not Cally or Dee. It being Baltar would have explained how he survived the blast in the mini, though that would have been too neat and pat. Worried it might have ben Zak; which would have been alternately awesome and sucky. Never thought it would be Lee/Adama/Laura/Kara, so I was gratified that it was not. I had strongly wondered if it might be Cain.
** It will be interesting to see Tigh caught in the middle of his beloved wife and his pregnant lover. (Don't spoil me!) Though... upon reflection, he was frakking Six while hallucinating that she was Ellen. Was he hallucinating...?
** Did I mention Kara was going to be a grownup and was about to confide in Lee? :-D OH PILOTS
** Yes, show, thank you for having D'Anna remind us that all this has happened before and will happen again. All I needed to hear right about now - in the middle of one of the most depressing hours of BSG - was the hint that the series will end on a downer. (Don't spoil me!)
Oh, and I am confused. I don't mind being in the dark, show, but I don't want 9 episodes of LOST. Please. And I would like some flippy ships. I'm sure Cavil will arrive in due time... (Don't spoil me!)
BSG is back!
PS, RON WHERE IS MY PODCAST?