Latest thoughts and feelings from my mess of a head...

[jaderowan8580]

Sometimes you get to a place in your life and you can't remember exactly how the fuck you managed to get there. You look around at the once friendly faces and wonder, "When did he/she start to hate me a little? And, why, if that's the case, am I still here? What am I doing? Why does this shit even bother me?" I have asked these questions a

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*offers a supportive hug*

[joecichlid]

The only person that can change it is you. Make a change in your life, move, get a different job or just do something for yourself. I am very sorry to hear that things are not going as well as they have in the past, you are in my thoughts.

*shurgs* When you think you've done things right?

[t_bonetor]

Lou...
I stumbled upon you by accident two or three years ago. Your pictures are amazing. At that time you were the most magnificent red head that I had ever seen. Thank you for that. You are not alone in much of your thought processes. I am here to say that it does in fact get better.

You made me smile at the high maintance comment.

Things will get better. They did for me. They can for you. Just be you but adapt and continue to adapt.

Your lecherous older stalker... (just kidding..... maybe.)

Re: *shurgs* When you think you've done things right?

[t_bonetor]

ah..Make that Lew... sheesh....

Re: *shurgs* When you think you've done things right?

[jaderowan8580]

You're not a very good stalker if you can't even get my name right...lol.

Re: *shurgs* When you think you've done things right?

[t_bonetor]

That is very true. I guess I am not. Oh well. At least I am still out here... okay perhaps confused but still out here... (smiles)

[wandererrob]

Wow. :(

I'm sorry to hear things are going so poorly. I wish I knew what to say, but I don't. I don't know, maybe this is all telling you it's time to move on to something new, be it a new place, new project, new faces, maybe a bit of all.

Hang in there. I know it's cliche, but things will get better. They always do somehow.

Oh, and that handgun thing, try not to shoot anybody. The paperwork is HELL :D

[gothcat1969]

I promise--things will get better. I went through that for years and now I'm starting come out of it! It takes awhile but it will get better!

This is for you. I did renditions of several pics you posted in 2004/05 on your lj.

Here's the link to one:

[jaderowan8580]

I'm such a slacker. I finally went to your deviant art gallery. Your work is quite good. And, forgive me if I'm a bit biased, but I love the drawings you've done of me. They are lovely! Thank you so much for your kind words. I really appreciate them.

[gothcat1969]

You welcome.:) I did these awhile back after you gave me the green light and wanted to share them with you. Last time the link did not work for you. I know what you are going through and it's rough going--but when the bad stuff starts falling away, you start reaping the benefits and it'll be slow going but over all-despite the bad trip--it's totally worth it in the long run. :)

**sends you good vibes**

[malphas69]

you are ok by me
*hugs*