Imago
My therapist has me doing this imago “homework” and honestly I just feel like it’s irresponsible because it’s putting me in a real dark place.
Reliving traumas I haven’t thought about in years. Is that the point? Do you want me to relive the time my dad threw me across the room so hard my body put a hole in the wall it hit? The way the outlet cut through the skin on my thigh so now I have a scar I can trace with my finger and tell people I got from a grumpy kitten? Or the time he beat me with a belt so the buckle left bruises across my legs and ribs while my mom put eyeliner on her bottom lids and insisted I did this to myself. The time as a teenager I disassociated in the shower because my mom ripped open the curtain and insisted she had a right to see my naked body in its entirety because she created it and I had proven that I didn’t deserve privacy so she would stare as I tried to shower the parts of myself I was just discovering.