Hello.Feeling a little better today.But I didn't work yesterday so that made a load of difference.Made it to rehearsal the other night and felt like hell the first go around but after I got into it I was fine.Plus it helps to be around good friends,Steve,Janice,Mandy,Scott,Autumn,Torch,and of course my beasty,and later Robert and his new friend ( Read more... )

Hello.I feel like I've been ran over with a truck.Tried to lay down on the floor here at work ands was told i had to get up-how insensitive.Tried to reschedule rehearsal and couldn't get a hold of anyone involved so I guess I'm gonna have to bite the bullet and do it.But a warning ahead of time if you read this if I throw up on you don't get upset. ( Read more... )

Hello.Very very very tired.Did not want to get up today.Work went ok last night.My boss and his woman came out and Scooter from work.Then went to dinner with Jerry and Jamie.They're so awesome.Got home about 11:20 and still couldn't sleep all night.Woke up twice and seems like just when I'd went to sleep the 2nd time the clock went off and it was 7 ( Read more... )

Hello.Little better mood today except I have to ruin it by going to the bar and letting nasty fucking yucky men touch all over me to make a damn dollar.Can't wait till I get out of that place for good,or I'm gonna end up in a rubber room.But hopefully I'll do allright and be able to egt the hell oput of there at a decent time.Hope everyones day ( Read more... )

Anyways don't mind me,I know I must sound like a basket case from hell,its the goth coming out in me I guess.I'll be fine,always am.Many blessings

Hello.Back from Ohio.Its been a long long week and still have so much to do.I know I've been off since Wednesday but somehow it just doesn't feel like it.I've had little of no sleep since everythings happened and I have overdue bills to make up.It seems like every part of my life is going to shit.I'm gonna have to go to a doctor and try to get on ( Read more... )

Last entry for today.Just found out minutes ago my father has passed through the veil.Many blessings

Well have to go back to Ohio tonight,just got a call.My dads got maybe a couple more days left,his internal organs are shutting down and hes on morphine and can't breathe so I have to go take care of things.Please Steve,Janice or anyone else whos going to the meeting Wednesday let Torch and Autumn know whats going on for me and that I should be ( Read more... )

Hello.Flew to Ohio to see my father.Its about the end and trying to come to peace with it.Worried about my mother though for she had to take my sister off life support 20 years ago when she was killed by a drunk driver and now she may have to make this decision again with my father.Last couple of years have been extremely hard emotionally,mentally ( Read more... )

Hello.Well this week doesn't seem to have much hope of being any good.Found out last night my fathers getting out of the hospital but just to come home till he crosses over the veil.Hes given up and i can't really say i much blame him.Hes lost everything he ever worked for and now hes losing his life slowly and painfully.So I'm gonna try to fly up ( Read more... )