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Start'er Up
Technically my new diet began on the 9th, but since I sort of eased into it somewhere in the afternoon, I'll begin counting and logging at the 10th. Not that anyone but me cares about the particulars, but we all know that if you publish your progress, you are more likely to stick with it ( Read more... ) -
When Depression Hits the End of the Road
I've been depressed now for almost 40 years. And I've been in pain, daily pain, for at least 4. You ever just think that maybe I'm tired? It's a grinding struggle, really a life or death struggle each and every moment because what I want to do, seriously want to do, is just rest, and for me there is no rest to be found ( Read more... ) -
The Weight of Ferguson, Solutions of Change
Oh look, it's Officer Friendly!This cartoon is "snark" for me, because this is how I deal with things sometimes, but with all of our issues regarding police, our needs and wants and our realities, and also not forgetting their needs and wants and realities, I still hold by my original idea. It may be wrong, and it is probably, almost certainly, ( Read more... ) -
GIRL PROBLEMS
As most girls know, being on the pill generally makes your periods lighter (it's one of the things they are prescribed for). I take mine on a continuous dose, which means I'm not supposed to have periods (yes, this has been proven to be safe) but sometimes I'll have spotting. I missed a pill, meaning I had to take it late (you double up the next ( Read more... ) -
Tactile Nightmares
The worst nightmares are the tactile ones, where I can feel something that happens in the dream. You cannot prove to me that other worlds don't exist so long as my dream universe remains real enough to touch me ( Read more... ) -
Stuck in a Rut, On Top of a Mountain
I feel like I'm trapped in limbo, gliding along but not really going anywhere and pretty much aimless. It's a little suffocating, not having any meaningful goals or feeling truly synced in with the rest of the world. On some days, it's nice to be able to sit back and just look at stuff, all the things you didn't have time to check out, all the ( Read more... ) -
Hating Frost
Today I discovered that I hate Robert Frost. He's a good poet, I'll grant you that, because only an excellent writer can give you the means by which to hate him long after he's dead. I'm reading a book in which each chapter is headed by a quote from one of his poems, and I've been looking up the poems as I go along. Some I like, some love, some I'm ( Read more... ) -
A LIttle About Spirals
I tell everyone that life is always in spirals. You always live somewhere on the spiral. You are either in the growing part, where you go up the spiral, learning new things and making new friends and connections, or your are turned around and traveling down the spiral, drawing away from people, shutting down. You could call that the dying part ( Read more... ) -
Reality Is....
You and me, past tense
I never thought I could miss a body,
Breathing in breathing out,
stalemate, check,
blood on the bathroom floor.
Reality is....
Hope sending, catch a star
I never thought I could hurt somebody
falling rain shower thunderstorm,
crackle, speck,
flood on a tile, no doors. -
Issues in Pain
Hating my GP right now, although I can understand her reluctance to keep prescribing me pain meds. She sent me to pain management to "fob me off" on them, but pain management understandably didn't want to have 57 different drs writing me prescriptions. So they agreed to consult with my GP and tell her what to write for me, only somewhere along ( Read more... )