in which I have daddy issues. Again. Still.
So my father wants me to go on a trip with him, and it's to see people that I would like to see, who've been very nice to me in the past. But we come again to the issue of he will not specify traveling companions. I don't want to go if it involves spending 6 hours in a car with the guy who molested me when I was a teenager.
But here's the thing: if I ask, my dad's just gonna get pissed and try to appropriate the trauma. His thing last summer when I backed out of the family reunion when he wouldn't tell me if my cousin was going to be there was, "You're just using that as an excuse to push away my family. You go to reunions on your mother's side of the family." -- side note: my mother does not have nephews I've known to sneak out of their wives' beds in the middle of the night and climb into mine. This argument is irrelevant to my father. -- "You need to get over that because now it's affecting my plans." and "You're the one who kept the whole thing a secret. How do you think that makes me feel?"
Also, don't want to have to deal with 6 hours of that. Which is what I'll be subjected to if I ask who else is going.
Family is stressful. How do other people deal? And really, I wouldn't have any qualms about completely severing ties with my father except my brother still lives with him and I hang out with my brother once every week or two. In fact, my father's preferred method of communication is giving messages to my brother.
But here's the thing: if I ask, my dad's just gonna get pissed and try to appropriate the trauma. His thing last summer when I backed out of the family reunion when he wouldn't tell me if my cousin was going to be there was, "You're just using that as an excuse to push away my family. You go to reunions on your mother's side of the family." -- side note: my mother does not have nephews I've known to sneak out of their wives' beds in the middle of the night and climb into mine. This argument is irrelevant to my father. -- "You need to get over that because now it's affecting my plans." and "You're the one who kept the whole thing a secret. How do you think that makes me feel?"
Also, don't want to have to deal with 6 hours of that. Which is what I'll be subjected to if I ask who else is going.
Family is stressful. How do other people deal? And really, I wouldn't have any qualms about completely severing ties with my father except my brother still lives with him and I hang out with my brother once every week or two. In fact, my father's preferred method of communication is giving messages to my brother.