Life isn't about getting what you want. Sadly enough, I know we live in a harsh motherfuckin' cold reality--completely void of fairytale endings and perfectly placed, unconditional love. We're in our own hell(s).

Sitting here gazing at the glowing screen, I can't help but think that I need to sleep. I got about 5 hours of sleep last night and 4 hours the night before that. I was shacked up at the William T. Young library buried 156 pages into my abnormal text. I studied, if you can even call it that, for about 4 solid hours. Not by any means were those ( Read more... )

I just had a breakdown.
The tears were uncontrollably welcomed.

I've concluded:

Although I am never alone,

I am indeed alone all the time.

inside.

Oh, I am filling out a ridiculous amount of applications. I am set on being more involved. Here is my philosophy: As of now, I am a lazy bum. I have little to do, therefore, I do near nothing. If I was busy and had actual objectives, I feel as though I will be more motivated in general. It worked in high school, and I mean, really, what do I have ( Read more... )

It is approximately 20 till 6. I kicked my sociology paper in the ass. Now, I'm waiting till breakfast. I'm not in the least bit hungry. The cappuccino, potato chips, donuts, and tea have left me more than satisfied. I should be reading. Or sleeping. I plan on showerin pretty soon. If I am going to feel like shit, I got to at least try to look ( Read more... )

I was just informed that I am too politically correct, and that I neglect my real self. Yes, so the reason I was told this ( Read more... )

Everything seems so un-necessary. I'm sad. I miss everything and I hate all that is now.

My music selection is very fitting here lately.

"For the life of me, I'd never thought we'd die for these sins. We were merely freshmen."

Burr motherfucker. I think my heater is shot again. I've unplugged it and plugged it back again, which usually works, and it is still blowing out 32 degree air ( Read more... )

F it. I do not feel well, so I am going to skip Sociology & Art. I will surely force myself to attend social psychology so I do not feel like a utterly worthless piece of shit. Plus, I need to observe these debates so I know how to do them ( Read more... )