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Chapter 5
Harry
I paced up and down outside Danny’s room at the hospital I knew he didn’t want to do this so why did I put him a position where he had to choose between his baby and me…the stress of what he was going to have to do has now put his life in danger, I want to resent the baby for that, or maybe it was me … if I had have just put any doubts aside and just supported you instead of avoiding you, then maybe this wouldn’t have happened. But now it had been taken out of my hands. I sat next to Tom putting my head in my hands I felt my eyes well.
“he’ll be fine Harry you know Dan.” Tom said reassuringly
“What if he’s lost the baby and its my fault.” Tom didn’t have and answer for that he just looked at me sadly, it was when we told them that I realized that if we had of kept the baby that they would help us through it. I was interrupted from thoughts by Tom tapping me and I looked up to see Doctor James standing in front of my I stood immediately asking her how he was.
“Danny is fine. The morning sickness has left him dehydrated and malnourished we’ve put him on a drip to improve both so he should be fine.” she smiled
“The baby…?” I asked quietly dreading the answer
“The pain Danny suffered before he collapsed was the baby getting distressed because of the trouble Danny’s body was having. But once we stabilized Danny the babies vitals and everything else went back to normal.” I smiled relieved
“Can I see him?” I asked
“Yes, he should be coming round soon. I‘ll be by to check on him later.” she smiled walking away.
I opened the door to Danny’s room quietly to see him slowly waking up. I sat in the seat beside him and waited for him to wake fully when he realized where he was he panicked
“The baby…” he started
“Is fine you were dehydrated and the baby got stressed … you weren’t having a miscarriage.” I smiled but that was soon wiped away when I saw Danny’s tears I thought then that he was upset that he hadn’t lost the baby.
“I’m sorry if that’s not what you wanted to hear.” I said moodily letting his hand I had been holding drop
“not what I wanted to hear, I don’t think it’s what you wanted to hear you mean, this would be so much easier for you if I had of lost it.” he snapped
“What.” I said shocked
“you don’t want this baby, and the only reason I’m having the abortion and killing our baby is because the thought of losing you by deciding to keep the baby would kill me. But you know what I‘ve had it I‘m not going to kill and innocent child, I won‘t do it Harry” he said tears falling down his cheeks
“Dan…I…I thought that you were having the abortion because you didn’t what it, I thought understood .” I said taking his hand again
“understood what.” you snapped
“that we can’t do this, we aren’t ready, I mean what do we do when you start to show how do we explain that.” I begged
“they don’t have to know. I don’t want to do this I want this baby…I want a family and I want to do it with you.” you sniffed
“ I don’t want to kill it either Danny but I … I can’t bare to watch you go through this.” I sighed
“so you do what it?“ he asked timidly
“yes more that anything, I want a family with you Danny.” I said
“me too, Harry I don’t care that this will be hard as long as we do it together it will be ok, It was killing me the thought that I was going to kill our baby but I didn’t want to lose you.” he sighed
“how did this happen we usually talk about everything?” I asked
“I don’t know but lets not do it again. I’m glad this happened I wouldn’t have been able to live with myself if I had have done it.”
“And me if I had of let you.” I smiled
Half an hour later Doctor James walked in and smiled at us.
“how you feeling Danny?” she asked
“I’m good.” he smiled
“well while you here and I’m free we could do the procedure now.” she asked
“I’ve decided not to go through with it, we’ve decided to keep the baby.” Danny said and I tightened my grip on his hand and watched as Dr James smiled
“Glad to here it. Well then I guess I have to explain what to expect “she said pulling up a chair and sat on the other side of Danny
“Ok Danny this may be uncomfortable for you towards the ok, when your 6 weeks away from your due date I need you to stay somewhere close to the hospital your waters can not be allowed to break because should u go into early labour I need you here as soon as possible so that I can perform a c-section before they do break because if I don’t it’s to late ok.” we nodded
“also no matter how bad your sickness you have to eat as much as possible or else you’ll be back here.” she smiled
“you will find things difficult but with help you’ll be fine.”
“Thank you.” Danny smiled
“I want to see you every 3 weeks of until your seven months then I need to see once a week ok.” we both nodded well in that case you can leave once that drips done she smiled. Suddenly a thought crossed my mind.
“Dr James, the staff here do they…” she cut me off
“no I told them a little white lie, I know that the press wouldn’t be long in finding out if the staff here new, I was alone when I checked the baby.” she smiled as I nodded before leaving the home.
We were really going to do this. But what would we tell anyone.