i lost five pounds. i think if i can lose 10 more, i'll look better, and 20 more, i'll look great.

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hey asif. it feels really cool to have someone else reading. 'specially you, derkaderka.

paula makes me so happy. i don't think she even knows. watching her grow, change, and mature is such an experience. (i know she's reading this. haha.) seriously though. her and jenalee are the only freshman from last year i really give a damn about, and watching them go through highschool is incredible. the steps they take, the changes they grow ( Read more... )

i think this is the year i've missed the most school ( Read more... )

everytime the day darkens down and goes away ( Read more... )

i know they only stay together for us, but fuck.. it doesn't make them happy.

i've been feeling more social, or whatever lately. i don't feel as lonely.

and i don't care if you leave. your friendship doesn't benefit me.

i got my period today. i wanted it to be an answer to all my problems, but nah.

my show's on saturday, and i could not be any more nervous. eek.

I LOVE KMFDM AND I AM NOT ASHAMED!!!!!

fuck u haters.

saw chris rys, tonight. that made me really happy.

i don't get to see him often, so this was nice! and right now, at this present moment in time where everything looked bleak and horrible, he's given me something nice, even for just a little bit: happiness. i know that sounds stupid. it's weird what little things can do.

i want cuddles. no relationship. just cuddles.