My dog's licking my leg, does that mean she likes me?

[jamazur]

Ugh, today was... awkward.

Again, woke up at 4:30, went to work for a good 7 hours. It was nice, until I decided to be a moron (didn't take too long this morning). At the Y, we have the option of giving our memebrs a free 'fitness evaluation,' we have a few personal trainers that take the test, etc etc.... So I decided that this morning I should

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[goatman596]

*HUG* It is just numbers, trust me. You look great, you KNOW that you're healthy, so why worry about it? I think our culture gives us very bad image problems, and that you really have no reason to feel bad. You not only are healthier, but you also look better, than any 5 foot 11 twig with 0% body that wears a size -13. Trust me on that one.

Anyway, we need to hang out again some time, and did I cause you to miss the movie tomorrow or something? I'm sorry about that, I couldn't make it at the planned time, if you want to go with Melissa and the crew I can just bow out and you guys can have your time back.

*One more HUG* Honestly, don't listen to the "Numbers," they lie about the true state of your body. You are gorgeous, healthy, and just generally lookin' Hott all the time, girl.

~Pi

[jamazur]

Thanks Andrew. I think a lot of it is all mental, I just need a nice hammer to hit my head a few hundred times. I just wish there was some way I could accept it, but I'm certainly not doing a very good job right now.. gah..

I think Melissa really wanted *you* to go tomorrow, mostly because she didn't say anything to me when I told her I couldn't make it. Makes sense, I'll be leaving soon enough. Have fun, maybe we can do something before I leave. But based on our previous gang get together planning, it looks like its very unlikely. Some friends I have. Thanks anyway. Hope to at least still talk to you online.

- Me

[goatman596]

I hope to see you before you leave, it doesn't have to be a group thing, I can see you before you go.

~Pi

[jamazur]

I'd like to stop for just one second/

The reason I posted this way, was because I was overwhelmingly upset and stressed. I apologize for the rudeness of this previous post. It was uncalled for, and arrogant. So yeah, I can't get together with my friends once in a while, I'm ok with it. Work sometimes screws us over, especially if we want to be with our friends. I apologize for my ignorance.

Plus, I *can* go tonight to the movie, what a spoiled brat I am.

I honestly don't know where my Tucson friends come into play anymore. I feel that I'm not as close to them as I want to be. Maybe its all in my head (would make a lot of sense), but I ask for forgiveness and I apologize. What i've said was rude, and you all should get a big cookie from me, because of my bitchyness. You are all my friends, and I hope we can sit down and talk about this before I go. Because in all honesty, I will miss you all. Melissa the most

Feeling Stupid and spoiled,

-Me

[draxle]

Those BMI tests are almost always fundamentally flawed, because they do not take into account one's overall body shape in addition to their height and weight. My brother is just as tall as me, and outweighs me by fifty pounds. By any BMI test, he'd probably be considered in critical danger for his weight, but in all honesty, he's in better shape than I am. I might be more agile, but when it comes to pumping iron, my little bro has me beat.

I'm sorry you don't feel like you have any real friends in Tucson; I know that's not true... but I also know there is no way I can prove it to you, except by being there for you as a friend.

I will always be there for you.

-Matt

[anonymous]

OMG Julia, you're fine. You're not fat or anything. Don't worry about it! Besides, I'm sure college will help with that what with all the walking and then the winter.
And yes, I am a little sad you think you have no friends here other than the SAWs. That's really not fair but I'm sorry you feel that way.

Atticus Peck

[jamazur]

Oh Carla! I miss thee deeply!

Thank you all for your support. I think its funny how you're still here, posting on my LJ, telling me how you feel. What a brat I am. Thank you Carla, and you're right, I'm not being fair. I said a stupid thing, and didn't realize who's actually here for me. Thank you :)

I hope to see you tonight, if you have time. I'll give you a call later today if you'd like. *hugs for Carla, Matt, Melissa, Pi, and everyone*

Apologizing for the rudeness, I hope you can all forgive me. Now, I've *gotta* figure out how to make you guys some cookies, because gosh darnit, you guys need some.

-J

[anonymous]

Well thanks Julia. I posted awhile ago on one of your entries to kind of say the same thing: that you also have friends here shortly after your return from NAU. But I guess you didn't get it or something.
And yes, I'm going to the movies tonight so I guess I will see you. It's good to be able to go out with friends (I haven't been out with anyone from salpointe except pyzdek -and EJ doesn't count).

[anonymous]

Oh, and yes, a call would be nice. Thanks!

Atticus Peck