Contemplation.

[james_aka_logan]

I sat in one of the bigger trees on the edge of the estate, my back against the expansive trunk, legs stretched out and crossed on the large branch, cigar burnin’ in the growin’ darkness. I sat there and stewed.

Slim and Frost! Sweet Boneless Christ!

Bastard sure didn’t waste time movin’ on. Makes me sick. This was the guy Red picked?!? Damn it

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[queenemma]

"Logan," I said as I walked toward him carefully. "I could hear your thoughts. They're practically screaming at me. Would you care to actually talk

[james_aka_logan]

The sound an' smell of someone approachin' shook me out of my thoughts. Frost. I pulled my hat down lower over my eyes, not lookin' down.

"Logan, I could hear your thoughts. They're practically screaming at me. Would you care to actually talk?"

"An' what, share our feelings? Ain't nothin' t' say."

"You still love her, don't you? Even after all of this."A soft growl of frustration grumbled in my throat. I pushed my hat back an' looked at her

[queenemma]

"Ya wanna know? Want me t' say it out loud?"

'Well, yes you idiot' was what I thought, but I bit my tongue and waited for Logan to finish his rant.

"Yeah, I still love her. Ya see, love's f'ed up like that; no matter how much ya try not to, no matter how much it hurts to love someone who can't love ya back, ya just can't help it. Ya love someone, it's usually ferever."

"Is it?" I asked casually, actually wanting an answer from him. I was so tired of the inevitability of Jean and Scott, of Phoenix and Cyclops, of this supposed love that lasts through death, fire, and destruction. Logan and I knew the truth, I was sure. There might be love, there might even be "true love", but one that lasts forever? Hardly. If that were true, Scott would never turn to me and Jean would never turn to Logan.

Deep down somewhere they didn't wish to admit were parts of them unhappy with their supposed "forever love". It didn't take someone else to come between them; they did that all on their own.

"An' no matter what some folks say, ya don't get t'

[james_aka_logan]

"Would you want her back even though she still loved Scott?"

I shook my head at her. "Dumbest question I ever heard; 'course I'd want her back! I ain't no saint, Frost, but I can tolerate Jean bein' with Slim if it meant her still bein' alive."

My mind turned to too many years past filled with pain and loss.

"But if we're gonna be wishin' people back from the dead, there's a whole long list o' folk should get their shot at the resurrection bit.

"'Sides, the truth is I need t' let go. Spend too much time mournin' the dead, you neglect the livin'."