True statements hurt the most --

"Everyone has found someone better."

"I'm so lonely."

Lies are too easy.

"I'm not mad."

"I never said I didn't like you."

"I love you."

Ugh. Blockhead.

I have the sincerest way of holding on to the past. I just want to....be alone and not miss you. Fuck ( Read more... )

So last night Lyn and I gathered up our Pringles and our Honey Comb and went to watch the meteor shower behind A mountain. One lust driven couple, two pot smoking groups and countless falling stars later, I was laying on the top of a car with my best friend, listen to the Shins and laughing so hard that the air around us didn't feel so empty. And ( Read more... )

I posted a note on facebook today with a blurb that I didn't write, but enjoyed, and was mistaken as my own. Unfortunately, I am not the witty or creative, and was vividly reminded of this instance that has stuck with me since childhood. It was October in third grade and we were learning about poetry. Limmericks and and sonnets, the whole nine ( Read more... )

Two margaritas, two cocktails and three shots later, I'm not even drunk. Just sad and alone and looking at dirty pictures that my ex boyfriend just sent me.

I am so disappointed in what my life has become. I clearly missed an important class on self discovery.

Okay. I'm a little drunk.

Yeah.
:(.

The long awaited ( Read more... )

All the systems at work are down. So here I am, on livejournal.

Nothing to say, really. Nothing to do, either.
I hate getting used to attention and then having it taken away.
I generally hate getting used to anything.

Life is melencholy.
Pish posh.
At least Im alive.

I'm at a stand still.

I wish I had something to write about. Something to go out and live for.

I wish I had the inspiration that I did when you were my love and words and emotions and smiles were endless.

I have just come to a stuttering halt in the progress of self discovery ( Read more... )