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She's numb and wasted ( Read more... )

Even now, after so long without it,
I still get flashbacks to how it felt when I let it wash over me.
All it took was that one second of giving in
and then I could feel the warmth of blankets on my skin,
the relief of not caring about any troubles,
giving over to the emotions that were brought to the surface of my glazed eyes.
The side effects of the ( Read more... )

cause i still think about you from time to time ( Read more... )

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So i'm sitting here trying to figure out how long i've been clean when i realized the fact i need to look at a calander is a good thing ( Read more... )

rock bottom....

I realized that something was seriously wrong (oh, you think so??) when I was able to cry about others' depression but not my own. When I realized that I was so emotionally numb that I could not mourn for the tragedies of my life, and that just as I have been void of joy, I have been void of sadness and of the healing power of tears ( Read more... )

my ring is really pretty and i can't stop looking at it.

i need to paint my nails.

ben gave me an engagement ring today.

life is good.

(more later, just wanted to post that before going to bed.)