so... um
on day 40 something of not speaking, I got an apology. And things have been on a steady incline since then.
I got my best friend back and things are better than ever and im HAPPY.

So Im basking in my night off, entirely relaxed and chilling out.
The phone rings.
It's Uncle Eddie~ My grandmother died at 5AM. They waited til everyone was home from their workdays so as not to cause a nuisance to the family. WHAT THE FUCK.

I remember when life was spent on livejournal ( Read more... )

Today marks 21 days of no communication with Peter ( Read more... )

I have dropped a full pant size in the past 11 days. I have eaten a total of 6 ritz crackers, one small meal of chicken with green beans and a roll (supper with cardinal sean), 5 granola bars, 3 cheese sticks, and half a cheeseburger since it happened. I have aloso consumed about 20 quarts of gatorade as well as unmeasured amounts of water ( Read more... )

I have spent two of the best years of my life in this friendship.
Im not letting go.
I still have plenty of fight left in me.
"Never give up on the person you can't go a day without thinking about."

So its day 6 of not having Peter in my life all the time. Thing is, he's not gone because Im still living my life around him. Although now its about making sure Im nowhere near where he will be at any given time and fighting the urge to buy something I know he would love ( Read more... )

I posted an entry awhile ago about ending things with Peter- it didnt happen... then.
Tonight has been probably my worst night in awhile. I can't cry... I just feel heavy.

My firend Diana's going away party was last night.
She's Polish so her parents naturally let, and encouraged, us to drink...
I drank wayyy too much, said wayyyy too much and t was just an all around great night.

But man I am going to miss Diana.

so allergy season is giving me a swift kick in the rear this week ( Read more... )