I SPENT THE ENTIRE DAY CRYING on and off... not only because of how embarrassed I was before... but because I have NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT I WANT TO DO with my life. I"m extremly miserable.. I'm extremly depressed... and I'm not motivated. TEaching isn't working otu fo rme, either. I have nothing left.. I feel lieknot going to college is wating my ( Read more... )

I'm so embarrassed. I'm so mad. I'm so hating and hurtful at this opint. I'm in a BAD MOOD because of what happened today in class. I'm home now.. but I think I still have to go to my next class anyway. fuck. I don't feel like going. but i have to pick up michelle like I promised, anyway ( Read more... )

my lip feels 10 times it normal size. my teeth hurt. I have a gross taste in my mouth. I'm numb. and... yea.. I hate the dentist. now it's time for childrens literature and history class! I'll be home a bit until work, at least. until then, I'm hoping this numbing goes away FAST. And it's 10:15 and I've been up since 6:30.. my sister was so ( Read more... )

OKAy ( Read more... )

*gasp* and update! hold onto yur seats, kiddies ( Read more... )

I have to stat writing again. Since christmas I've wrote less and less and less... but I wonder if that a good thing after all? It seems that all I used to write about is "me and Jess this " or other negative things. sure, I'll still write those things.. but ltemme tell you. This last fight did it. Or maybe, it opened my eyes. I felt bad ( Read more... )

Is there a way to relax at this point? Tell me what's good about this moment ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here at 5:45 in the morning and I am tired. I went to bed at 11:00 and it's not like I'm having a hard time sleeping --- it's that my work day starts at this hour. I get up so early it's... so frustrating. The whole weekend was blown away trying to make up what the rest of the week lost on me. Here's how it went: Friday was camp and ( Read more... )

I am sooo busy now I dont' update. how upsetting ( Read more... )

two jobs now. your lori, k everyone. 0 to 2. so much money, so many many hours! I figured out that at dartwood you have to work either early or late program..which is when the kids stay later or are dropped off early. I told everyone I ahve a 2nd job at 5 and that I couildn't stay but noooo. They all take the morning shifts instead so I was ( Read more... )