Fic: Finding Love Through Coincidence 4/?
Title: Finding Love Through Coincidence 4/?
Pairing: Kurt/Sebastian
Rating: R
Summary: Written for this prompt: AU season 2, where Sebastian is already at Dalton when Kurt transfers. So Blaine is chasing after other boys, but Sebastian finds it amusing how tetchy the other boy gets when he hits on the naive, oblivious Kurt. Sebastian's only doing it to get a rise out of Blaine at first (they don't like each other at all - bad history), but then one day, Sebastian's injured whilst playing some sport, and Kurt fusses over him and they get talking properly. Sebastian loves all the attention from Kurt and begins to take him seriously. Eventually, he courts Kurt for real and they finally date.
Bonus points for Sebastian calling Kurt a variety of would-be degrading names such as: Precious, Baby, Baby-Doll, Sweetcheeks, Pretty Baby and you get the picture.
Kurbastian awkwardly hanging out with Blaine with Seblaine having eye-wars between them.
A/N: Somehow, this chapter just will not come out the way I wanted it too… But still, I hope that you guys like it… Also, this story is progressing slowly, I just want to really detail the way Sebastian and Kurt’s relationship develops, I apologize if it’s a bit too boring as a result, because the smut may be a long, long way down the road yet.
P.S: Fic unbeta-ed, sorry for mistakes. Again, hope you find this chapter enjoyable! =)
~STARTS~
Kurt’s avoiding Sebastian.
He’s been doing it for three days now, ever since that afternoon when Sebastian confessed to him during lunch.
Well, not so much of a confession, more like declared that he likes Kurt, and then proceeds to haughtily decide that Kurt should be his.
Kurt’s only reaction during that time is to stare at Sebastian blankly for nearly a minute, nod and then escape as fast as he can.
He didn’t know what to make of this sudden proclamation. It’s too sudden, and Sebastian’s way of telling him isn’t exactly helping with matters. Kurt’s pretty sure that Sebastian’s just momentarily lost his mind, leading to him thinking that he likes Kurt.
Sebastian Smythe doesn’t do relationships, even Kurt knows that. The man is notorious in Dalton for his almost man-whorish ways, and the fact that Kurt’s seen no less than 10 different guys with Sebastian since he knew the man makes it clear that Sebastian’s exactly like how the rumors painted him out to be. Despite knowing Sebastian’s reputation, Kurt finds that he genuinely likes Sebastian as a person, and treats him as his friend.
But now Sebastian’s telling Kurt that he likes him and wants him and that Kurt apparently belongs to him.
Just the mere thought of this sends waves of irritation rolling through Kurt’s body. He feels like seeking Sebastian out just to punch him in the face. What is it with gay men in his life? First, there’s Karofsky who terrified the hell out of him, making his life a living hell. Then there’s Blaine, in which he has been completely besotted with, before realizing that Blaine’s not such a saint after all, and though he still treats Blaine as his best friend, he will never look at Blaine as a potential love interest ever again. Now there’s Sebastian, a smug bastard who seems to be perfectly content to flirt outrageously, say whatever he wants and expects Kurt to just nod and follow along.
Well Kurt isn’t going to let anyone else influence him and his life but himself. And he’ll be damned if Sebastian thinks that Kurt’s going to fall swooning into his arms just because the bastard smirked almost sexily and declared with very alluring confidence that Kurt’s his possession.
So what if Kurt did feel his heart skipped a beat at the possessiveness in Sebastian’s tone? He’s not an item to be owned and possessed. He’s a living, breathing human being with thoughts of his own. And for all that Sebastian says he likes Kurt, he obviously lacks the maturity to treat something that he professed to admire as a decent human being.
And now that he’s thinking about it, Kurt really just wants to hit Sebastian’s smug, smirking meercat face.
Slamming his book shut, Kurt sighs and drops his head down onto the table. He’s currently hiding out in a secluded corner of Dalton’s massive library, and he’s hoping that Sebastian won’t be able to find him here.
The man’s been surprisingly insistent in his pursuit of Kurt though. While Kurt took steps to avoid Sebastian, the latter has been trying everything to find Kurt. Apparently Sebastian’s been asking around for Kurt, deliberately waiting for him around his locker during the mornings, and messaging him continuously via phone and the internet.
It is completely out of character for Sebastian to be so invested in someone, and there are already classmates and friends asking Kurt about what’s going on between him and Sebastian. The Dalton rumor mill is working overtime, and Kurt’s already hearing people speculating that he might be ‘The One’ who has actually managed to reform Sebastian-I-Fuck-But-I-Don’t-Date-Smythe.
But that’s not even the worst part. The worst part is he keeps getting hostile, jealous or sad stares aimed at him from Sebastian’s admirers. Kurt supposes that most of them must be pretty pissed off now, thinking who is Kurt to just come along and so easily gain Sebastian’s affections and devotion.
Kurt scoffs. That would be wonderful if Sebastian’s supposed affections and devotion are true. Everyone is thinking that Sebastian’s fallen head over heels for this gorgeous boy who’s somehow managed to captivate him so thoroughly that he’s pining over Kurt in a completely pathetic and romantic manner. And that he confesses to Kurt in a completely heart-warming and loving manner, possibly with a large bouquet of roses, expensive chocolates and with music serenading in the background as he pours his heart out, hoping that Kurt will accept him.
Well, Kurt itches to tell everyone just how completely wrong they are. Sebastian might have confessed (in which Kurt still very much doubts his sincerity and sanity), but it’s not romantic at all. It’s not even that heartfelt. Kurt might not be much of an expert in love or relationships, seeing that he’s never been in one, but even he knows that one doesn’t confess like an evil overlord asking for their minion to submit to them.
And now Kurt’s back to thinking about Sebastian’s attitude during that fated lunch, and he’s scowling before he realizes it.
Sebastian did seem genuinely determined and believing in the fact that he likes Kurt, there’s no denying it, but at the same time, Kurt just can’t bring himself to believe that it’s really true.
There is no way that Sebastian Smythe really likes him.
However, as much as he thinks about it, Kurt just can’t understand why Sebastian would confess to him in the first place when it isn’t true.
He sighs. He’s getting a headache just from trying to make sense out of all this mess.
Sebastian is driving him round the bend, and Kurt really regrets the day when he thinks that the man is harmless and decides to befriend him.
He looks up at the sound of footsteps, only to see Sebastian practically stalking towards him, and Kurt freezes, feeling again like prey caught under the gaze of its predator.
Kurt gulps.
He really, really regrets it.
~Kurbastian~
Sebastian’s nearly out of his mind. Kurt’s just driving him crazy. The pale boy has been hiding from him for three days now, and no matter what Sebastian does, Kurt either ignores him when he sees him, or runs away before Sebastian even has a chance to talk to him.
He didn’t know what he did wrong. One moment he’s telling Kurt that he likes him and wants Kurt to be his, and then Kurt’s running off like Sebastian just told him that he’s a serial killer and Kurt’s his next victim.
Really, is it that shocking to hear Sebastian’s confession?
Sebastian wonders if he said something wrong, but no matter how much he thinks about it, he has just been telling Kurt about what he’s feeling and what he wants from Kurt. Surely that’s the way confessions go-expressing one’s feelings and hoping to get a favorable response. Kurt didn’t exactly reply him, but he didn’t reject him either, and Sebastian takes that as a good sign. Besides, Sebastian thinks that he’s been perfectly clear in his wishes, and that is he wants Kurt as his boyfriend, belonging to him and just him alone. Kurt could not have misinterpret what Sebastian means when he says “I like you, you’re mine.”
Sebastian scowls, storming down the hallway, determined to corner Kurt today. If only Kurt would just talk to him, maybe he can understand what it is that he seemed to have done which upsets Kurt so much that the boy chooses to avoid him instead of meeting him.
It’s frustrating and Sebastian’s exasperated. He’s never felt anxious and worried just because a boy refuses to speak and meet him. But Kurt is special. Already these three days of Kurt’s absence is making him lose his concentration in classes, and Sebastian just finds himself missing the boy so much that his mind just won’t stop thinking about Kurt and his heart yearns to hear Kurt’s voice.
Spotting Jeff in front, Sebastian strides forward, and asks: “Have you seen Kurt around?”
Jeff jumps, “Good lord, Sebastian. Give a guy some warning the next time, will ya?”
“Fine, fine. Just tell me where Kurt is. I can’t find him at all.”
Jeff grins, eyes sparkling mischievously. “Looking for Kurt, are you? Heard that you’ve been doing that a lot lately. So, what’s the scoop here? Is it true that the great heartless Sebastian Smythe has finally fallen to the mighty siege of True Love?”
Sebastian frowns. “Is that really what people are saying?”
“Of course. There’s really nothing much to gossip about nowadays, and your abnormal behavior is definitely talk-worthy. Or is it that you’re just trying really hard to get into Kurt’s pants and that he’s avoiding you because you can’t take no for an answer?”
Sebastian growls. “Fuck. What kind of bastard do you think I am? I won’t do something like that to Kurt!”
Jeff raises his eyebrows. “You’ve always been a bastard, Sebastian. You admitted that yourself.” His face takes on a more serious expression. “If you’re just playing with Kurt I’m going to stop you right here, right now, Sebastian. Kurt doesn’t need you jerking him around. He’s been through enough already. And I will make you regret it if you do hurt him.”
Sebastian feels anger rising up, threatening to break onto surface. “Nice to see that you’ve such low expectations of me, Jeffrey. But I can swear on my life right now that I will never hurt Kurt. I could never hurt him. And I don’t need someone like you to threaten me and sticking your nose into me and Kurt’s business.”
He’s turning around and walking away when Jeff catches him by the shoulder.
“What?!” Sebastian snarls as he whips his head back.
Jeff’s cocking his head, regarding him with a curious look. “It’s real.” He breathes, tone disbelieving. “You really do care for Kurt, don’t you?” Sebastian just glares back, he didn’t think that he needs to justify himself at all. But something must have shown on his face, because Jeff’s letting out a low whistle.
“The supposedly heartless Sebastian Smythe. Never thought I would see this day.” He shakes his head and chuckles.
“Do you have a point to all this rambling?” Sebastian says, annoyed,
“Yes I do.” Jeff slaps Sebastian on his back, firmly. “Kurt’s in the library, the most north-west corner.”
Sebastian blinks. “Erm, thanks?”
Jeff throws his head back and laughs. “Good luck, dude. You’re going to need it with Kurt, especially with your reputation.”
“My reputation?” Sebastian echoes.
“Yes! Your reputation for being a totally soulless bastard who breaks the heart of cute boys. Not to mention you are a total man-whore who sleeps with anything with a pulse. Everyone knows how you are, Sebastian, or should I say how you’ve been. And I bet Kurt knows about it too, no wonder he’s hiding from you right now.”
Sebastian frowns. “Am I really that bad?”
Jeff laughs again, “Aside from being a promiscuous jerk, you’re actually a pretty great catch.”
“Thanks, I guess.” Sebastian replies. “I’m off to find Kurt. Thanks for telling me where he is, Jeff.”
“Good luck, man! You’re going to need it!” Jeff shouts after him.
Sebastian just waves his hand. He runs all the way to the library, and is slightly out of breath as he wanders along the aisles, making his way over to the north-west wing of the library. He spots a head of very familiar coiffed hair, and he’s moving forward, eager to finally make Kurt talk to him.
Kurt looks up, and the boy looks as gorgeous as ever. Sebastian feels his breath hitching, even as his eyes hungrily took in the image. He really did miss Kurt a lot these few days, and now that he’s seen him, he’s overcome by the urge to just grab Kurt and hug him.
Blue eyes meet his and widens in surprise. “Sebastian.”
Sebastian just nods and seats himself opposite Kurt. “I think we need to talk.”
~Kurbastian~
Kurt can’t believe that Sebastian actually managed to find him. He looks on as Sebastian sits himself opposite, placing his arms on the table and crossing his fingers even as he leans forward, looking Kurt right back in the eye.
“You’ve been avoiding me.” Sebastian states, not a question.
Kurt nods. “Yes. Yes, I have.”
He can see the way Sebastian’s hands clenches into fists. Kurt can’t help but wonder if Sebastian feels as nervous as he felt.
“Care to tell me why?” Sebastian asks, and when Kurt remains silent, he continues on. “I don’t understand Kurt. What did I do wrong? The only thing I did was to confess to you.”
Kurt snaps. His eyes burning brightly, he glares at Sebastian. “And that’s exactly the problem.”
“What?! Would you just tell me what I did wrong? Please, Kurt.”
Kurt sighs. “Sebastian. You can’t possibly mean what you said last time.”
“Why can’t I mean it? Is it really that hard to believe that I genuinely like you, Kurt?”
“Yes! You don’t do relationships, Sebastian! Everyone knows that! Which makes me wonder why you told me that you like me. I just can’t believe it.”
Sebastian feels like screaming. This is why he didn’t do relationships, feelings are too messy and one can never fully understand what the other is thinking about. But god, even if Kurt infuriates him, Sebastian knows that he’s already in too deep, because he still wants Kurt. And a burning desire and determination is burning up inside him.
“Believe it.” Sebastian says, tone almost pleading. “I know how I’ve been, Kurt, but I need you to believe me when I tell you that I really do like you.”
Kurt’s jaw drops. “No, Sebastian. You just think-”
“Kurt.” And Sebastian hates how his voice breaks, making him sound vulnerable, Sebastian has never shown weakness before. But he needs Kurt to understand. “Please, believe me. Don’t doubt my feelings. Please. I know how I feel. It’s just you who finds it hard to believe.”
Kurt’s looking at him, a dumbstruck look upon the counter tenor’s face. After a moment, he blushes, and nods. “Okay. Okay, I believe you. But still, even…Even if you do like me, it doesn’t mean that you can automatically assume that you have me.”
“Why not?”
Kurt resists the urge to roll his eyes. “Because. I’m not a property or an item, Sebastian. Just because you’ve taken a fancy to me doesn’t mean that you can just declare that I’m yours like you can buy me with your mere words. Things don’t work like that.”
Sebastian’s scowling, leaning back into the chair, looking every bit of a pampered prince. “But I want you to be mine. Isn’t that enough? I can make you love me Kurt. I can make you happy if you will just agree to be mine.”
Kurt shakes his head. He wonders if he’s gone mad, because even though he still feels exasperated and more than a bit furious with Sebastian, a part of him finds Sebastian’s petulance and his completely skewed common sense actually adorable.
“You can’t force me to love you. I need to fall in love with you and agree to be with you on my own. I’m not a present to you, Sebastian, no matter how much you want me. I can only be yours if I agree to be so, do you understand me? You can’t just declare it like it’s already a fact when I’ve not consented at all.”
Sebastian looks like he’s struggling valiantly to try and understand this concept. It makes Kurt wonder if he’s really never had anyone said no to him before and that he has really been this cut off from emotions that he can’t even fathom the thought of getting someone’s affections without any manipulation and blatant forcing on his part.
Eventually, Sebastian sighs, “Emotions are so troublesome.”
Kurt smiles. “That they are.”
Sebastian looks exasperated, sighing again dramatically, and Kurt has the vision of a sulking yet oddly lovable prince popping into mind.
“Fine then.” Sebastian says. “How do things normally go then? I’ve expressed my affections, but since you find it inappropriate for me to make the decision of deeming you mine, what do other people normally do?”
Kurt blushes. “Well, I’m not really sure. I’ve never been a relationship before.” Sebastian visibly takes interest in this, sitting up straighter in his chair.
“Never?”
Kurt nods, face red with embarrassment, and Sebastian just looks so smug that Kurt huffs, “Yes, yes, I’ve never been in a relationship, now stop looking like a cat that got the canary.”
“Alright then,” Sebastian declares, a pleased smile playing on his lips. “seeing that we’ve both never been in a real relationship, and that I’ve very obviously declared my feelings for you, I think that it’s only appropriate that I ask you this: Kurt Elizabeth Hummel, I may be a total bastard and I might be emotionally constipated at times, but would you still be willing to give me a chance to prove myself?”
Kurt blinks. He can’t believe that Sebastian just asked for Kurt to give him a chance, sounding so sincere at the same time (Though the man still looks too smug and confident for Kurt’s tastes.)
“Well…I have to tell you right now, that I’m still having trouble believing that you are actually serious about this. That you’re actually serious about me.” Kurt says.
Sebastian groans. “Kurt, please, just give me a chance. I know myself, and I know that I’m a certified bastard. But to you, I’m really completely sincere. Just give me a chance to prove myself. I know I can show you and convince you that this is real. Please. Just a chance.”
Sebastian would have been mortified at how hard he’s pleading, but he’s getting pretty much desperate. Kurt is not like any other boys he’s met. Normally a few moments of flirting and a litany of both lewd remarks, sweet but empty promises and also feigned interest is enough for any boy to swoon at Sebastian’s feet. And sometimes all Sebastian has to do is act all authoritative but charming or cool and aloof and guys would be attracted to him, offering themselves to him.
However, none of his tactics has worked on Kurt before, so Sebastian knows that applying his usual methods is futile. He’s practically sailing on unchartered waters now, and Sebastian can honestly admit to himself that he didn’t know the first thing to do in wooing another person.
He seems to be doing okay though, because Kurt gives a small nod after a moment of contemplation.
“Fine, I’ll give you a chance.”
Sebastian feels so happy that he’s certain that he can break out into song like a nauseatingly typical Disney character (and oh god, what has liking Kurt done to his black, cold heart?), but he schools his face into a moderately pleased expression, smiling at Kurt (he’s also trying his best not to smirk, which is more difficult than imagined) as he reaches out to caress Kurt’s face.
“Thank you. You won’t regret it.”
Sebastian really, really hopes that he won’t screw things up.
~ENDS~
Pairing: Kurt/Sebastian
Rating: R
Summary: Written for this prompt: AU season 2, where Sebastian is already at Dalton when Kurt transfers. So Blaine is chasing after other boys, but Sebastian finds it amusing how tetchy the other boy gets when he hits on the naive, oblivious Kurt. Sebastian's only doing it to get a rise out of Blaine at first (they don't like each other at all - bad history), but then one day, Sebastian's injured whilst playing some sport, and Kurt fusses over him and they get talking properly. Sebastian loves all the attention from Kurt and begins to take him seriously. Eventually, he courts Kurt for real and they finally date.
Bonus points for Sebastian calling Kurt a variety of would-be degrading names such as: Precious, Baby, Baby-Doll, Sweetcheeks, Pretty Baby and you get the picture.
Kurbastian awkwardly hanging out with Blaine with Seblaine having eye-wars between them.
A/N: Somehow, this chapter just will not come out the way I wanted it too… But still, I hope that you guys like it… Also, this story is progressing slowly, I just want to really detail the way Sebastian and Kurt’s relationship develops, I apologize if it’s a bit too boring as a result, because the smut may be a long, long way down the road yet.
P.S: Fic unbeta-ed, sorry for mistakes. Again, hope you find this chapter enjoyable! =)
~STARTS~
Kurt’s avoiding Sebastian.
He’s been doing it for three days now, ever since that afternoon when Sebastian confessed to him during lunch.
Well, not so much of a confession, more like declared that he likes Kurt, and then proceeds to haughtily decide that Kurt should be his.
Kurt’s only reaction during that time is to stare at Sebastian blankly for nearly a minute, nod and then escape as fast as he can.
He didn’t know what to make of this sudden proclamation. It’s too sudden, and Sebastian’s way of telling him isn’t exactly helping with matters. Kurt’s pretty sure that Sebastian’s just momentarily lost his mind, leading to him thinking that he likes Kurt.
Sebastian Smythe doesn’t do relationships, even Kurt knows that. The man is notorious in Dalton for his almost man-whorish ways, and the fact that Kurt’s seen no less than 10 different guys with Sebastian since he knew the man makes it clear that Sebastian’s exactly like how the rumors painted him out to be. Despite knowing Sebastian’s reputation, Kurt finds that he genuinely likes Sebastian as a person, and treats him as his friend.
But now Sebastian’s telling Kurt that he likes him and wants him and that Kurt apparently belongs to him.
Just the mere thought of this sends waves of irritation rolling through Kurt’s body. He feels like seeking Sebastian out just to punch him in the face. What is it with gay men in his life? First, there’s Karofsky who terrified the hell out of him, making his life a living hell. Then there’s Blaine, in which he has been completely besotted with, before realizing that Blaine’s not such a saint after all, and though he still treats Blaine as his best friend, he will never look at Blaine as a potential love interest ever again. Now there’s Sebastian, a smug bastard who seems to be perfectly content to flirt outrageously, say whatever he wants and expects Kurt to just nod and follow along.
Well Kurt isn’t going to let anyone else influence him and his life but himself. And he’ll be damned if Sebastian thinks that Kurt’s going to fall swooning into his arms just because the bastard smirked almost sexily and declared with very alluring confidence that Kurt’s his possession.
So what if Kurt did feel his heart skipped a beat at the possessiveness in Sebastian’s tone? He’s not an item to be owned and possessed. He’s a living, breathing human being with thoughts of his own. And for all that Sebastian says he likes Kurt, he obviously lacks the maturity to treat something that he professed to admire as a decent human being.
And now that he’s thinking about it, Kurt really just wants to hit Sebastian’s smug, smirking meercat face.
Slamming his book shut, Kurt sighs and drops his head down onto the table. He’s currently hiding out in a secluded corner of Dalton’s massive library, and he’s hoping that Sebastian won’t be able to find him here.
The man’s been surprisingly insistent in his pursuit of Kurt though. While Kurt took steps to avoid Sebastian, the latter has been trying everything to find Kurt. Apparently Sebastian’s been asking around for Kurt, deliberately waiting for him around his locker during the mornings, and messaging him continuously via phone and the internet.
It is completely out of character for Sebastian to be so invested in someone, and there are already classmates and friends asking Kurt about what’s going on between him and Sebastian. The Dalton rumor mill is working overtime, and Kurt’s already hearing people speculating that he might be ‘The One’ who has actually managed to reform Sebastian-I-Fuck-But-I-Don’t-Date-Smythe.
But that’s not even the worst part. The worst part is he keeps getting hostile, jealous or sad stares aimed at him from Sebastian’s admirers. Kurt supposes that most of them must be pretty pissed off now, thinking who is Kurt to just come along and so easily gain Sebastian’s affections and devotion.
Kurt scoffs. That would be wonderful if Sebastian’s supposed affections and devotion are true. Everyone is thinking that Sebastian’s fallen head over heels for this gorgeous boy who’s somehow managed to captivate him so thoroughly that he’s pining over Kurt in a completely pathetic and romantic manner. And that he confesses to Kurt in a completely heart-warming and loving manner, possibly with a large bouquet of roses, expensive chocolates and with music serenading in the background as he pours his heart out, hoping that Kurt will accept him.
Well, Kurt itches to tell everyone just how completely wrong they are. Sebastian might have confessed (in which Kurt still very much doubts his sincerity and sanity), but it’s not romantic at all. It’s not even that heartfelt. Kurt might not be much of an expert in love or relationships, seeing that he’s never been in one, but even he knows that one doesn’t confess like an evil overlord asking for their minion to submit to them.
And now Kurt’s back to thinking about Sebastian’s attitude during that fated lunch, and he’s scowling before he realizes it.
Sebastian did seem genuinely determined and believing in the fact that he likes Kurt, there’s no denying it, but at the same time, Kurt just can’t bring himself to believe that it’s really true.
There is no way that Sebastian Smythe really likes him.
However, as much as he thinks about it, Kurt just can’t understand why Sebastian would confess to him in the first place when it isn’t true.
He sighs. He’s getting a headache just from trying to make sense out of all this mess.
Sebastian is driving him round the bend, and Kurt really regrets the day when he thinks that the man is harmless and decides to befriend him.
He looks up at the sound of footsteps, only to see Sebastian practically stalking towards him, and Kurt freezes, feeling again like prey caught under the gaze of its predator.
Kurt gulps.
He really, really regrets it.
~Kurbastian~
Sebastian’s nearly out of his mind. Kurt’s just driving him crazy. The pale boy has been hiding from him for three days now, and no matter what Sebastian does, Kurt either ignores him when he sees him, or runs away before Sebastian even has a chance to talk to him.
He didn’t know what he did wrong. One moment he’s telling Kurt that he likes him and wants Kurt to be his, and then Kurt’s running off like Sebastian just told him that he’s a serial killer and Kurt’s his next victim.
Really, is it that shocking to hear Sebastian’s confession?
Sebastian wonders if he said something wrong, but no matter how much he thinks about it, he has just been telling Kurt about what he’s feeling and what he wants from Kurt. Surely that’s the way confessions go-expressing one’s feelings and hoping to get a favorable response. Kurt didn’t exactly reply him, but he didn’t reject him either, and Sebastian takes that as a good sign. Besides, Sebastian thinks that he’s been perfectly clear in his wishes, and that is he wants Kurt as his boyfriend, belonging to him and just him alone. Kurt could not have misinterpret what Sebastian means when he says “I like you, you’re mine.”
Sebastian scowls, storming down the hallway, determined to corner Kurt today. If only Kurt would just talk to him, maybe he can understand what it is that he seemed to have done which upsets Kurt so much that the boy chooses to avoid him instead of meeting him.
It’s frustrating and Sebastian’s exasperated. He’s never felt anxious and worried just because a boy refuses to speak and meet him. But Kurt is special. Already these three days of Kurt’s absence is making him lose his concentration in classes, and Sebastian just finds himself missing the boy so much that his mind just won’t stop thinking about Kurt and his heart yearns to hear Kurt’s voice.
Spotting Jeff in front, Sebastian strides forward, and asks: “Have you seen Kurt around?”
Jeff jumps, “Good lord, Sebastian. Give a guy some warning the next time, will ya?”
“Fine, fine. Just tell me where Kurt is. I can’t find him at all.”
Jeff grins, eyes sparkling mischievously. “Looking for Kurt, are you? Heard that you’ve been doing that a lot lately. So, what’s the scoop here? Is it true that the great heartless Sebastian Smythe has finally fallen to the mighty siege of True Love?”
Sebastian frowns. “Is that really what people are saying?”
“Of course. There’s really nothing much to gossip about nowadays, and your abnormal behavior is definitely talk-worthy. Or is it that you’re just trying really hard to get into Kurt’s pants and that he’s avoiding you because you can’t take no for an answer?”
Sebastian growls. “Fuck. What kind of bastard do you think I am? I won’t do something like that to Kurt!”
Jeff raises his eyebrows. “You’ve always been a bastard, Sebastian. You admitted that yourself.” His face takes on a more serious expression. “If you’re just playing with Kurt I’m going to stop you right here, right now, Sebastian. Kurt doesn’t need you jerking him around. He’s been through enough already. And I will make you regret it if you do hurt him.”
Sebastian feels anger rising up, threatening to break onto surface. “Nice to see that you’ve such low expectations of me, Jeffrey. But I can swear on my life right now that I will never hurt Kurt. I could never hurt him. And I don’t need someone like you to threaten me and sticking your nose into me and Kurt’s business.”
He’s turning around and walking away when Jeff catches him by the shoulder.
“What?!” Sebastian snarls as he whips his head back.
Jeff’s cocking his head, regarding him with a curious look. “It’s real.” He breathes, tone disbelieving. “You really do care for Kurt, don’t you?” Sebastian just glares back, he didn’t think that he needs to justify himself at all. But something must have shown on his face, because Jeff’s letting out a low whistle.
“The supposedly heartless Sebastian Smythe. Never thought I would see this day.” He shakes his head and chuckles.
“Do you have a point to all this rambling?” Sebastian says, annoyed,
“Yes I do.” Jeff slaps Sebastian on his back, firmly. “Kurt’s in the library, the most north-west corner.”
Sebastian blinks. “Erm, thanks?”
Jeff throws his head back and laughs. “Good luck, dude. You’re going to need it with Kurt, especially with your reputation.”
“My reputation?” Sebastian echoes.
“Yes! Your reputation for being a totally soulless bastard who breaks the heart of cute boys. Not to mention you are a total man-whore who sleeps with anything with a pulse. Everyone knows how you are, Sebastian, or should I say how you’ve been. And I bet Kurt knows about it too, no wonder he’s hiding from you right now.”
Sebastian frowns. “Am I really that bad?”
Jeff laughs again, “Aside from being a promiscuous jerk, you’re actually a pretty great catch.”
“Thanks, I guess.” Sebastian replies. “I’m off to find Kurt. Thanks for telling me where he is, Jeff.”
“Good luck, man! You’re going to need it!” Jeff shouts after him.
Sebastian just waves his hand. He runs all the way to the library, and is slightly out of breath as he wanders along the aisles, making his way over to the north-west wing of the library. He spots a head of very familiar coiffed hair, and he’s moving forward, eager to finally make Kurt talk to him.
Kurt looks up, and the boy looks as gorgeous as ever. Sebastian feels his breath hitching, even as his eyes hungrily took in the image. He really did miss Kurt a lot these few days, and now that he’s seen him, he’s overcome by the urge to just grab Kurt and hug him.
Blue eyes meet his and widens in surprise. “Sebastian.”
Sebastian just nods and seats himself opposite Kurt. “I think we need to talk.”
~Kurbastian~
Kurt can’t believe that Sebastian actually managed to find him. He looks on as Sebastian sits himself opposite, placing his arms on the table and crossing his fingers even as he leans forward, looking Kurt right back in the eye.
“You’ve been avoiding me.” Sebastian states, not a question.
Kurt nods. “Yes. Yes, I have.”
He can see the way Sebastian’s hands clenches into fists. Kurt can’t help but wonder if Sebastian feels as nervous as he felt.
“Care to tell me why?” Sebastian asks, and when Kurt remains silent, he continues on. “I don’t understand Kurt. What did I do wrong? The only thing I did was to confess to you.”
Kurt snaps. His eyes burning brightly, he glares at Sebastian. “And that’s exactly the problem.”
“What?! Would you just tell me what I did wrong? Please, Kurt.”
Kurt sighs. “Sebastian. You can’t possibly mean what you said last time.”
“Why can’t I mean it? Is it really that hard to believe that I genuinely like you, Kurt?”
“Yes! You don’t do relationships, Sebastian! Everyone knows that! Which makes me wonder why you told me that you like me. I just can’t believe it.”
Sebastian feels like screaming. This is why he didn’t do relationships, feelings are too messy and one can never fully understand what the other is thinking about. But god, even if Kurt infuriates him, Sebastian knows that he’s already in too deep, because he still wants Kurt. And a burning desire and determination is burning up inside him.
“Believe it.” Sebastian says, tone almost pleading. “I know how I’ve been, Kurt, but I need you to believe me when I tell you that I really do like you.”
Kurt’s jaw drops. “No, Sebastian. You just think-”
“Kurt.” And Sebastian hates how his voice breaks, making him sound vulnerable, Sebastian has never shown weakness before. But he needs Kurt to understand. “Please, believe me. Don’t doubt my feelings. Please. I know how I feel. It’s just you who finds it hard to believe.”
Kurt’s looking at him, a dumbstruck look upon the counter tenor’s face. After a moment, he blushes, and nods. “Okay. Okay, I believe you. But still, even…Even if you do like me, it doesn’t mean that you can automatically assume that you have me.”
“Why not?”
Kurt resists the urge to roll his eyes. “Because. I’m not a property or an item, Sebastian. Just because you’ve taken a fancy to me doesn’t mean that you can just declare that I’m yours like you can buy me with your mere words. Things don’t work like that.”
Sebastian’s scowling, leaning back into the chair, looking every bit of a pampered prince. “But I want you to be mine. Isn’t that enough? I can make you love me Kurt. I can make you happy if you will just agree to be mine.”
Kurt shakes his head. He wonders if he’s gone mad, because even though he still feels exasperated and more than a bit furious with Sebastian, a part of him finds Sebastian’s petulance and his completely skewed common sense actually adorable.
“You can’t force me to love you. I need to fall in love with you and agree to be with you on my own. I’m not a present to you, Sebastian, no matter how much you want me. I can only be yours if I agree to be so, do you understand me? You can’t just declare it like it’s already a fact when I’ve not consented at all.”
Sebastian looks like he’s struggling valiantly to try and understand this concept. It makes Kurt wonder if he’s really never had anyone said no to him before and that he has really been this cut off from emotions that he can’t even fathom the thought of getting someone’s affections without any manipulation and blatant forcing on his part.
Eventually, Sebastian sighs, “Emotions are so troublesome.”
Kurt smiles. “That they are.”
Sebastian looks exasperated, sighing again dramatically, and Kurt has the vision of a sulking yet oddly lovable prince popping into mind.
“Fine then.” Sebastian says. “How do things normally go then? I’ve expressed my affections, but since you find it inappropriate for me to make the decision of deeming you mine, what do other people normally do?”
Kurt blushes. “Well, I’m not really sure. I’ve never been a relationship before.” Sebastian visibly takes interest in this, sitting up straighter in his chair.
“Never?”
Kurt nods, face red with embarrassment, and Sebastian just looks so smug that Kurt huffs, “Yes, yes, I’ve never been in a relationship, now stop looking like a cat that got the canary.”
“Alright then,” Sebastian declares, a pleased smile playing on his lips. “seeing that we’ve both never been in a real relationship, and that I’ve very obviously declared my feelings for you, I think that it’s only appropriate that I ask you this: Kurt Elizabeth Hummel, I may be a total bastard and I might be emotionally constipated at times, but would you still be willing to give me a chance to prove myself?”
Kurt blinks. He can’t believe that Sebastian just asked for Kurt to give him a chance, sounding so sincere at the same time (Though the man still looks too smug and confident for Kurt’s tastes.)
“Well…I have to tell you right now, that I’m still having trouble believing that you are actually serious about this. That you’re actually serious about me.” Kurt says.
Sebastian groans. “Kurt, please, just give me a chance. I know myself, and I know that I’m a certified bastard. But to you, I’m really completely sincere. Just give me a chance to prove myself. I know I can show you and convince you that this is real. Please. Just a chance.”
Sebastian would have been mortified at how hard he’s pleading, but he’s getting pretty much desperate. Kurt is not like any other boys he’s met. Normally a few moments of flirting and a litany of both lewd remarks, sweet but empty promises and also feigned interest is enough for any boy to swoon at Sebastian’s feet. And sometimes all Sebastian has to do is act all authoritative but charming or cool and aloof and guys would be attracted to him, offering themselves to him.
However, none of his tactics has worked on Kurt before, so Sebastian knows that applying his usual methods is futile. He’s practically sailing on unchartered waters now, and Sebastian can honestly admit to himself that he didn’t know the first thing to do in wooing another person.
He seems to be doing okay though, because Kurt gives a small nod after a moment of contemplation.
“Fine, I’ll give you a chance.”
Sebastian feels so happy that he’s certain that he can break out into song like a nauseatingly typical Disney character (and oh god, what has liking Kurt done to his black, cold heart?), but he schools his face into a moderately pleased expression, smiling at Kurt (he’s also trying his best not to smirk, which is more difficult than imagined) as he reaches out to caress Kurt’s face.
“Thank you. You won’t regret it.”
Sebastian really, really hopes that he won’t screw things up.
~ENDS~