Self-therapy
This is cut for a reason: it's really boring and self-involved.
So...I think I'm kind of a gullible dummy.
Because, see, I was all excited about the fact that Dan was still making a really strong effort to stay in touch with me while he's away at college. I mean, we talked on the phone; he hung out with me when he visited last time; he wrote me really long facebook messages, and then replied to me promptly; he sent me a bunch of facebook gifts and wall posts and told me how much he missed me. It was nice, and I was really happy that we managed to have a good relationship after the Year From Hell (last year) when he kind of stopped being my bestest friend ever.
But now I realize he was just doing all of that because it was the first few months of college, and he was really homesick, and he hadn't really gotten a strong group of friends at Notre Dame. See, because now that he has a great group of people that he "hangs out with all the time," he's stopped doing all of those things. And I don't even know who I should complain to, because it's not really his fault, I guess. It just makes me sad, because I had tricked myself into thinking that nothing would be different while he was away at college, and I even though things would be better. Reality has kind of sneaked up behind me and kicked me in the ass ninja-style.
It just sucks. It's not anyone's fault either. It's just the way things are when friends move away and get new lives. But I don't like change. And I'm insecure and easily jealous. Sigh.
Sorry, I've got no one around me right now that I can share all this with, so I thought I'd get it out via lj. This is really just a therapy session for me. :P
So...I think I'm kind of a gullible dummy.
Because, see, I was all excited about the fact that Dan was still making a really strong effort to stay in touch with me while he's away at college. I mean, we talked on the phone; he hung out with me when he visited last time; he wrote me really long facebook messages, and then replied to me promptly; he sent me a bunch of facebook gifts and wall posts and told me how much he missed me. It was nice, and I was really happy that we managed to have a good relationship after the Year From Hell (last year) when he kind of stopped being my bestest friend ever.
But now I realize he was just doing all of that because it was the first few months of college, and he was really homesick, and he hadn't really gotten a strong group of friends at Notre Dame. See, because now that he has a great group of people that he "hangs out with all the time," he's stopped doing all of those things. And I don't even know who I should complain to, because it's not really his fault, I guess. It just makes me sad, because I had tricked myself into thinking that nothing would be different while he was away at college, and I even though things would be better. Reality has kind of sneaked up behind me and kicked me in the ass ninja-style.
It just sucks. It's not anyone's fault either. It's just the way things are when friends move away and get new lives. But I don't like change. And I'm insecure and easily jealous. Sigh.
Sorry, I've got no one around me right now that I can share all this with, so I thought I'd get it out via lj. This is really just a therapy session for me. :P