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I always told myself that when things got too close to home, that I'd gracefully pull away, in an effort to not be one of those psycho-bitch players we all know so well, that when scorned by the not-really lovers, still manage to lose their shit a little.
I have plenty in my real life to keep me psycho. I'm an entertainment manager, which in short, is like babysitting 5 grown men as though they were toddlers. It's nerve wracking and takes up far too much time. Also, I recently got married to a wonderful man, which was what pulled me away from the game long enough for the Brad/Matt situation. Let me make that clear. It was MY absence that caused this. Brad-p isn't nearly that fickle or unfeeling. In fact, Brad-p has been one of my favorite people I have ever played with in my entire life.
But now my husband and I are doing things like thinking about children. I have siblings who have been through much of what Janel has been through (completely coincidentally), and I just don't want to live through that in a fictional world. It's hard enough in the real world.
I want to thank everyone who I've played with and by naming you would take me all fucking night. Just know that if you talked her off a ledge at one point or another (or attended my wedding), I love you, dearly.
Brad-person, I positively adore you. Go and be happy. Should anything change. I will give you all means to keep in touch with me.... (AND YOU BETTER KEEP IN TOUCH WITH ME DAMN IT). We'll always have Paris... aka Schizophrenia, but time is just not on my side for the week. Don't think I won't be around.
PLEASE NOTE: IF YOU SEE "JANEL JUSTIFIED" ONLINE - SHE IS PURELY CIVVIE STATUS UNLESS FURTHER NOTED HERE.
Much love,
Janel's writer