life is busy busy...my schedule is full of MEETINGS. which rocks. i love meetins. also i'm excited about this stork thing...i forgot how much i need friends of the girl variety to have FUN with ( Read more... )

oops...wild night...come find me later.

(i'll update again later about it though, so you might just want to wait)

i want to cry but the tears won't come. i feel like i could stay here for years and nothing would change. and probably a part of me doesn't want it to. doesn't want to try...argh. fuck. damn. shit. ass. bitch. shit. (oops, repeat). well that pretty much does it.

love love love love love love
where is the love
melissa

pretty much what it boils down to is that if life doesn't change pretty damn soon i am going to completely lose myself in it. because it's boring and worthless and overall entirely too full of a constant, oozing, oppressive sameness that i can't seem to swim out of. don't get me wrong- i'm busy, i'm healthy, i'm comfortable. but i'm bored. ( Read more... )

i am thinking about five million ridiculous impossible ludicrous things and it makes absolutely no sense but i am for once following my heart (forgive the cliche) and i will admit up front that i have never before been this vulnerable in my life.

and i hate not knowing.

melissa

ps today was a good, beautiful and soooo deep day.

what the fuck natalie. drawing is so damn HARD. i guess i will go do homework instead.

aaagh. thank goodness for coffee, ya know? peace.