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psychobillypunk: hi
rockmebowie: hi
psychobillypunk: whats goin on
psychobillypunk: how ya doin
rockmebowie: bleh
rockmebowie: you?
psychobillypunk: pretty good i suppose, ready for the semester to get over with
psychobillypunk: why are you bleh
psychobillypunk: didn't you hav ea good weekend?
rockmebowie: nope. i had a shitty weekend. gearing up for a shittier week. yay.
psychobillypunk: how come
psychobillypunk: what happneed
rockmebowie: stupid shit. more than i could possibly type out.
psychobillypunk: that fuckin sucks
psychobillypunk: but the holidays are coming up so you should get in the spirit of the season
rockmebowie: my birthday is friday. and i am not in the spirit
psychobillypunk: :-(
psychobillypunk: why not
psychobillypunk: if its ur birthday you should be happy
psychobillypunk: its the big 19
psychobillypunk: the most pointless age but still its ur birthday
rockmebowie: i have play on my birthday. this weekend was supposed to be the weekend i had fun for my birthday. and i did not...in the least
psychobillypunk: well thats terrible
psychobillypunk: birthdays are supposed to be good
psychobillypunk: my birthdays are usually like any other day except my mom always freaks out
rockmebowie: yeah i guess so
rockmebowie: yeah. that is crazy
psychobillypunk: r u gonna do anyting speical for you birthday
rockmebowie: no
rockmebowie: i have play at lgp
rockmebowie: i am gonna become a nonpracticing lesbian
psychobillypunk: why
rockmebowie: things with penises suck
psychobillypunk: chicks suck just as much as guys do
rockmebowie: no. we truly do not.
psychobillypunk: i disagree big time, chicks are just as fucked and fuck over dudes just as much
psychobillypunk: they just seem more innocent
rockmebowie: but anyway if i am nonpracticing then i do not have to deal with them either
psychobillypunk: thats a good point
rockmebowie: no. boys fuck girls over so much more.
rockmebowie: i should fucking know
psychobillypunk: u hav'net taken it from the guys end though
psychobillypunk: but i think both suck so its all good
rockmebowie: no, i haven't. because i have a vagina and not a penis
rockmebowie: i'm not going to be nice to anyone anymore ever
psychobillypunk: thats not a good way to look at things
psychobillypunk: u always seem so cheerful
rockmebowie: because i am too nice and i hate everybody and they treat me like shit
rockmebowie: yeah. when was the last time we talked again?
psychobillypunk: we havent' talked in pry a month or so
rockmebowie: yeah
rockmebowie: i am tired of being cheerful and fucking nice to everybody
psychobillypunk: but thats why people like you
psychobillypunk: your cheerful personallity
psychobillypunk: and good spirity
rockmebowie: no
rockmebowie: people like my tits
rockmebowie: or they feel sorry for me
psychobillypunk: thats not a good way to look at it
rockmebowie: oh well
rockmebowie: realism
psychobillypunk: neh, u have alot of friends
rockmebowie: no no i do not
psychobillypunk: you used to atleast, what happened?
rockmebowie: i have people who used to hang out with me, people who are mean to me, and stefoni nick and erin
rockmebowie: well i started semi liking myself so all of a sudden i had changed
rockmebowie: as none of them even hung out with me anyway so how would they know
psychobillypunk: :-(
psychobillypunk: have u ever seen nightmare before christmas
rockmebowie: of course. i am obsessed with it
psychobillypunk: wanna go see it at the tivoli
rockmebowie: when?
psychobillypunk: not sure, i'd have to check, i just know its playing there for a week
rockmebowie: hmmm. maybe
psychobillypunk: okay
rockmebowie: i can't this week. because i have class, rehearsals, and then the play.
psychobillypunk: yeah, i don't think its this week, it hink it might be the week after or the week after that
psychobillypunk: i'm not sure
rockmebowie: ok cool
rockmebowie: i don't think i am busy
rockmebowie: i want to be a nun
rockmebowie: i am gonna be catholic and be a nun
psychobillypunk: its december 19th and then a week after that
rockmebowie: ok. i will go
psychobillypunk: i get my tonsels out on the 19th
psychobillypunk: thats gonna be so bad
rockmebowie: ooo man i am sorry
psychobillypunk: its gonna be one swolen christmas
rockmebowie: that sucks.
psychobillypunk: i gotta eat lunch with my dad, i'll be back later
psychobillypunk: have fun
psychobillypunk: hope you feel better
psychobillypunk signed off at 3:30:33 PM.
Yeah. talked to Chris. Hmm. I hate Tony. He sent me this really mean email where he totally lied but whatever. Stefoni explained to me earlier today already how he is. So, whatever. He said some really mean things that, though they probably are not true, really do hit on sore spots with me. I hate the way I am to myself. I am too hard on myself. I do not love myself enough. I believe mean things people say about me too easily. Someone says I am ugly, and I think "yeah, I probably am." I hate that. Why oh why do I have to buy into shit all the time.
Brandon is touching shit on my computer. and being annoying. oh fuck. i do not want to go to rehearsal.
i want to cry. not because i care about tony, but because i do feel rather ugly and pathetic. why do i do this?
stefoni made me this pretty hat. and she gave me a pretty shirt.
i made a necklace that says fuck face with happy yellow beads and smiley faces and stars and suns.
i made a happy pink anklet that says happy slut.
i made a necklace that said number one weiner butt, but nick wouldn't wear it because it had pink on it.
so i made nick a blue necklace with skulls and blue stars that says nick pimp.
and i made stefoni a necklace and erin one.
i like to make jewelery.
okay, still sad. that sucks. i thought other topics might help.
i am wrong again.
<3
Kirch