Prisoner of Love (Fanfic)- Chapter 8
Chapter notes: There is a sensitive issue that is going to be brought up in this chapter so you’ve been warned. Nothing graphic but it would be mentioned. If the issue of self-harm disturbs you, please do not read this chapter.
To read previous chapters, they can always be found here!
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Selina and Jun both panted as Ayu met them a few steps away from Sho’s room. Surprised registered briefly on Ayu’s face as she saw that Selina was not alone.
“How is he, Ayu? What exactly happened?” Selina bombarded her with questions.
Ayu held up a hand. “Calm down Sel. You’re not going to help Sakurai-san by getting injured yourself.”
Jun laid a hand on her shoulder which calmed her down a bit. Selina just nodded as she took a breath to calm herself. Ayu looked at both of them. Ryo often told her that something was going on between the both of them but nothing certain. The fact that he was with her confirmed something. But with this situation it would probably be best if Matsumoto-san was not here.
“Sel, it might be best if we could speak in private,” Ayu gently warned.
Without a second thought, Selinda turned around to face Jun. “Gomenasai,” was all she said.
Jun gave her a reassuring smile. “I’m done with my shift for the day so if there is anything you need, you know how to reach me.” He gave her shoulders a squeeze and was gone. Selina turned to Ayu once more.
“Tell me.”
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Selina sat and stared at Sho’s pale face. The only sound in the room was the beep of the machines. She never liked the sound of them. But the sound did reassure her that whoever was in the bed was still alive. He stirred. Her hold tightened on his hand.
His eyes slowly opened. At first, Sho was disoriented. It did not look like the ceiling of his hotel room. His eyes roamed to the curtains by the window. Definitely not his room with the awful taste in decor.
“Sho.” The voice was soft and hesitant.
He slowly moved his head to look at her. He opened his mouth to speak but no words came out. She momentarily released her hold on him as she got a glass of water with a straw. Selina let him take a small sip. After he did, she reset the glass by the table once more and grasped his hand.
“Selina,” was all he could muster.
“I’m here, Sho. I am here.” Those were the first and last words before Sho went back to sleep.
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Sho did not wake for the rest of the day. Selina wanted to stay but was not permitted to. She needed to decide if she should let Sho’s parents know. Knowing them, they probably both be too busy to even come. His staff probably notified them already. It was a sunny day that Selina barely noticed. She took a deep breath and stepped in.
He was surrounded with his two assistants and paperwork was placed on top of his table. Sho Sakurai was back to work. All conversation ceased as she entered the room. Before she could say another word, Sho requested his two assistants to take a 15 minute break. Nobody spoke until the other two persons closed the door behind them.
Selina looked at him carefully. The machines were gone. He looked ok but pale. She was at loss for words. When Ayu told her what happened, she could not believe her ears. Sho would do that? But why? Why would he do such a thing to endanger everything that he have worked so hard for? Selina did have another idea on why this happened. It was just a matter of how to start the conversation.
What can you say to a friend who tried to kill themselves?
“Sho,” she simply said his name.
“I’m a busy person Selina,” he replied as he continued to peruse the papers before him.
She took a step towards him. “Do you really have to be working now?”
“The papers and work would not do themselves and the world would not stop turning,” he replied as more papers rustled.
She sighed. “Fine. I’ll come back tomorrow.” As she turned away, his question stopped her.
“Why? Why would you come back?”
“Because we are friends.”
The papers crinkled underneath Sho’s fists.
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The next day, Selina took a breath before she entered his room. She was ready for a confrontation. She wasn’t prepared for what she saw when she opened the door. A soft breeze was blowing through the opened windows. Sho sat on his bed and stared out the window. He did not say a word but knew that he had a visitor. Selina took a seat near his bed and did not say anything.
“It was a day like this, wasn’t it?” Sho spoke softly. Without asking what day he referred to, she just nodded. “When the sun is bright and everybody is going on with their normal business, others waited, anxious and suffered. While everyone dreamed and hoped, someone else cried and anguished.”
“But it wasn’t that day for you and I, Sho. It wasn’t that day. And it was all thanks to...”
He cut her off with a hand and then put it down. “It was a long time ago. And it was unfair of me to hold it against you. But I am only human Sel. I thought I was cool to do that for you and for your father. Honestly, I wished it was enough for you to take a look at me. And not with gratitude. With love.”
“I do love you, Sho,” she insisted.
He chuckled. “You know what I mean, Sel.”
Tears trickled down her cheeks. “I am...sorry,” was all she could say. She glanced to the open ring case atop his bedside table that nestled an engagement diamond ring inside it. There was still traces of blood visible on the casing. It was on his palm when they found him in his hotel room. Without realizing it, his hand turned her face back to him. Her tears wet his hand.
“I almost lost you, Sho. I couldn’t...I don’t....please...” Her words stuttered as the tears continued to flow.
Sho only smiled as he wiped her tears.
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Jun clenched the box of cake with his one hand. He could hear the soft voices that came from inside the room. The voices was soft and maybe a hint of laughter. It was an odd thing to hear considering what the man inside the room went through. And yet, everyone could recover. He sympathized with him and at the same time, disliked what he did. He did not know if the other man would welcome his presence but Jun had to know. Then they would talk. He knocked on the door before he entered.
Selina sat in a stool near Sakurai’s bed. She wore a gray wool dress with leggings underneath paired with black ankle boots. Her coat and bag was set off to another table. Sakurai still wore his hospital garb. Between them were a few pictures. Both were surprised at his arrival. Nobody in the cafe knew what happened to Sakurai. Jun talked with Ayu if it was possible to visit him. Ayu asked permission from Sakurai and oddly, he permitted it. It appeared to Jun that Sakurai did not let Selina know.
“I am sorry to interrupt your conversation,” Jun started.
Selina only smiled at him and then at Sho. It looked like Sakurai was in a good mood. Maybe it was good that she was there. He acknowledged him with a nod.
“Here. These are the best cakes that the cafe has. I thought you would like them.”
Selina stood up to get the cakes from Jun. “How are you?” he whispered when she was near.
“I am good, thank you,” she answered. Selina turned to Sho. “Let me get some plates and make some tea from the kitchenette here so we can all enjoy the cakes. They are real good, Sho.” With cake in hand, she left the room.
“Thank you for the visit, Matsumoto-san. I hope everything is well with you?” Sho said in greeting.
Jun did not know how to start. So he stood and just said the first thing that came to mind.
“Why? Why are you doing this to her?” Jun demanded.
“Doing what exactly, Matsumoto-san?” Sho looked at him, puzzled.
Jun fists clenched. He can’t believe that this guy was being nonchalant about the entire thing. If he had not dropped by Toma’s restaurant and heard it from Malvika, he would not know anything.
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Flashback:
He has not heard back from her since that time he left the hospital. Jun knew that Selina could probably handle herself. In situations like this, she’d be self-reliant. It did not mean that he would stop worrying.
“Oi. If you are just going to brood over my curry, its best you go home, Matsumoto,” Toma complained. The guy came in for dinner but barely touched his food.
“Leave him be, Toma-kun. Matsumoto-san probably has a lot to think of,” Malvika remarked.
Jun emitted an embarrassed laugh. “Gomen, Toma. I didn’t mean to insult your food.” Jun took another bite.
“Ano, Matsumoto-san, has Selina dropped by the cafe by recently?” Malvika asked.
“Not since last time.” They all knew that what he referred to was that day Sho proposed to Selina. “Why would you ask Malvika?” The woman in question turned to her lover first. When Toma shrugged his shoulders, Malvika turned back to Jun.
“Do you think she’s avoiding the cafe?” Jun was the only one who knew where Selina had been lately it seems. Nobody else knew what happened to Sakurai besides Ryo and Ayu. Everybody else thought that both Selina and Sho were too busy.
“I don’t know if she is but...” Malvika hesitated. They were all friends there and care for each other. She did not know why she hesitated. “Toma and I saw her recently.” Toma nodded. She continued on. “She...Selina did not look too good.”
Toma remembered that day. He was on his way home. Toma waited for the pedestrian light to turn so he could cross. Selina stood in front of him which he didn’t even notice the first time. He had already crossed when the sound of a car honk got his attention. Apparently, Selina was too wrapped in her thoughts that she had not noticed the light change. Toma immediately pulled her to safety. That snapped her out of her reverie. Toma insisted that she go with him to the restaurant and talk with Malvika. With the way she was distracted, it might help to talk with a friend. It did not help that she looked like she hasn’t slept for awhile. She kindly refused and said to send her regards to Malvika.
After he heard what Toma told him, Jun had to know more. So he went to talk to Chri. He had the opportunity to do so when she came in one day.
It looked like Selina had not kept in touch with Chri either. They talked once after the incident in the cafe. But nothing related to what happened. Selina dropped by to apologize to Chri for her rude, drunken behavior that night they went to the club. Selina was upset by being dumped by Sho and retaliated on her friends.
“Did she ever mention anything to you about Sho?” Jun suddenly asked.
Chri thought for a moment. “If I remember right, Sho and Selina were childhood friends. Although their families often met during business parties, it wasn’t until Selina’s father’s operation that the two became close. Her father was very sick and they had to remove the kidneys. They say that it would take awhile to get a donor but miraculously they found one that matched him. It was Sho. He donated one of his kidneys to her father when he was very young.” Chri crinkled her forehead in thought. “After that, they were inseparable. Her father even talked of a marriage agreement between both of the families. Selina wasn’t aware of anything like that and since Sho moved away to take care of family business, forgot about it. That’s all I know.”
End of flashback.
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That had been plenty enough for Jun. He just had to hear it directly from him.
“I know you love her but why are you doing this to her, Sakurai-san? Why are you intentionally hurting her?” Jun asked and tried to not let his temper get the best of him.
Sho chuckled softly and gave him a pointed look. “Remember who was hurt here first, Matsumoto-san. I am the one in the hospital,” he stated the obvious.
“But if you don’t stop this, she might be next. Is this the kind of love you have for her?” Jun challenged.
“And what of it?” Sho replied back. His own hands were clenched. “You have no right to judge me on how I do things. At least I have been honest with myself.” He gave a derisive laugh. “I am not going to take that from a man that doesn’t even know what he wants.”
Jun stopped.
“I love Selina. Even before we made that connection. I have known her all my life. I lost a chance with her and I am not going to let that happen again, much less to lose to someone like you. Someone who can’t even decide.” Sho turned his head away dismissing. Jun headed towards the door. Before he left, there was one more thing that Sho had to say.
“I told you,she’s mine.”
As the other man closed the door behind him, Sho thought that maybe what he said was a mistake. That it might be the final push for Jun to admit to himself that he liked her and go after Selina. Sho chuckled. Did he really need to help a rival? No. He had to focus on himself. And not to ever let her go.
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Jun found her at the hospital’s rooftop. A couple of patients with either family or the nurses lingered around to get a breath of fresh air. Sometimes the hospital can be a bit stifling.
“So, this is where you went,” Jun commented.
Selina turned to the sound of his voice and gave him a tired smile. There were dark circles underneath her eyes. “I...I forgot the cake and tea somewhere. Silly me.” In all honesty, she gave the cake to another family next door. She heard their conversation. Things have been ok between them. They both avoided the obvious topic. But it wasn’t until she overheard their conversation that her worst fear has been confirmed.
Jun took a seat next to her. “You told me that you are good but you don’t look too good,” he commented.
Selina tried to laugh but failed. “Do I look like a zombie now? Probably should have paid more attention to my make-up this morning.”
They both were silent as the clouds rolled by.
Jun wanted to reach out to her. He could almost touch it. The intangible heaviness that surrounded her. Gone was the spunky, spoiled brat that he first met in that cafe. The one that sat next to him was just a hollow shell. Something that was not normal. But what Sakurai-san said hit a spot. He had no right to comfort her. Because unlike Sakurai-san who had the courage to let the entire world know of his love for the woman that sat beside him, Matsumoto Jun remained silent and unimposing.
Until then, he could not touch her. All he can do is be there for her when she did fall.
“Selina...” he started.
She suddenly stood up which surprised Jun. “I have to get home soon. Homework is piling up.”
Selina gathered her things from Sho’s room and they met outside the hospital. As Jun watched warily at the woman beside him, he can’t help but worry. All that talk of homework was a lie. Chri had let him know that for some weird reason, Selina took a break from school. All she did was visit Sakurai-san at the hospital everyday until visiting hours were over. Ayu often dropped by to check on Sakurai and she was always there.
Now as she stood on the opposite platform as they both waited for their respective trains. She waved him goodbye as he entered his own train home. That smile she gave him was a little bit odd. Before Jun could change his mind, the train doors closed on him. He went back to the other side to take one last look at her. Even though the next train hasn’t come yet, there was no sign of her at the platform. Did she leave? As the train pulled away from the station, Jun noticed a commotion on the other side. There was a couple of people that surrounded something. Or someone. All he could see of the person was the black ankle boots and the gray wool dress. As Jun shouted her name through the glass door, nobody heard his cries.
“SELINA!’”
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Chapter notes: This was a real heavy, emotion-wise, chapter for me. Things have suddenly turned good for me so writing something real depressing is a little bit hard for me. Nonetheless, I hope you enjoyed it. Read, Enjoy and Comment!
To read previous chapters, they can always be found here!
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Selina and Jun both panted as Ayu met them a few steps away from Sho’s room. Surprised registered briefly on Ayu’s face as she saw that Selina was not alone.
“How is he, Ayu? What exactly happened?” Selina bombarded her with questions.
Ayu held up a hand. “Calm down Sel. You’re not going to help Sakurai-san by getting injured yourself.”
Jun laid a hand on her shoulder which calmed her down a bit. Selina just nodded as she took a breath to calm herself. Ayu looked at both of them. Ryo often told her that something was going on between the both of them but nothing certain. The fact that he was with her confirmed something. But with this situation it would probably be best if Matsumoto-san was not here.
“Sel, it might be best if we could speak in private,” Ayu gently warned.
Without a second thought, Selinda turned around to face Jun. “Gomenasai,” was all she said.
Jun gave her a reassuring smile. “I’m done with my shift for the day so if there is anything you need, you know how to reach me.” He gave her shoulders a squeeze and was gone. Selina turned to Ayu once more.
“Tell me.”
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Selina sat and stared at Sho’s pale face. The only sound in the room was the beep of the machines. She never liked the sound of them. But the sound did reassure her that whoever was in the bed was still alive. He stirred. Her hold tightened on his hand.
His eyes slowly opened. At first, Sho was disoriented. It did not look like the ceiling of his hotel room. His eyes roamed to the curtains by the window. Definitely not his room with the awful taste in decor.
“Sho.” The voice was soft and hesitant.
He slowly moved his head to look at her. He opened his mouth to speak but no words came out. She momentarily released her hold on him as she got a glass of water with a straw. Selina let him take a small sip. After he did, she reset the glass by the table once more and grasped his hand.
“Selina,” was all he could muster.
“I’m here, Sho. I am here.” Those were the first and last words before Sho went back to sleep.
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Sho did not wake for the rest of the day. Selina wanted to stay but was not permitted to. She needed to decide if she should let Sho’s parents know. Knowing them, they probably both be too busy to even come. His staff probably notified them already. It was a sunny day that Selina barely noticed. She took a deep breath and stepped in.
He was surrounded with his two assistants and paperwork was placed on top of his table. Sho Sakurai was back to work. All conversation ceased as she entered the room. Before she could say another word, Sho requested his two assistants to take a 15 minute break. Nobody spoke until the other two persons closed the door behind them.
Selina looked at him carefully. The machines were gone. He looked ok but pale. She was at loss for words. When Ayu told her what happened, she could not believe her ears. Sho would do that? But why? Why would he do such a thing to endanger everything that he have worked so hard for? Selina did have another idea on why this happened. It was just a matter of how to start the conversation.
What can you say to a friend who tried to kill themselves?
“Sho,” she simply said his name.
“I’m a busy person Selina,” he replied as he continued to peruse the papers before him.
She took a step towards him. “Do you really have to be working now?”
“The papers and work would not do themselves and the world would not stop turning,” he replied as more papers rustled.
She sighed. “Fine. I’ll come back tomorrow.” As she turned away, his question stopped her.
“Why? Why would you come back?”
“Because we are friends.”
The papers crinkled underneath Sho’s fists.
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The next day, Selina took a breath before she entered his room. She was ready for a confrontation. She wasn’t prepared for what she saw when she opened the door. A soft breeze was blowing through the opened windows. Sho sat on his bed and stared out the window. He did not say a word but knew that he had a visitor. Selina took a seat near his bed and did not say anything.
“It was a day like this, wasn’t it?” Sho spoke softly. Without asking what day he referred to, she just nodded. “When the sun is bright and everybody is going on with their normal business, others waited, anxious and suffered. While everyone dreamed and hoped, someone else cried and anguished.”
“But it wasn’t that day for you and I, Sho. It wasn’t that day. And it was all thanks to...”
He cut her off with a hand and then put it down. “It was a long time ago. And it was unfair of me to hold it against you. But I am only human Sel. I thought I was cool to do that for you and for your father. Honestly, I wished it was enough for you to take a look at me. And not with gratitude. With love.”
“I do love you, Sho,” she insisted.
He chuckled. “You know what I mean, Sel.”
Tears trickled down her cheeks. “I am...sorry,” was all she could say. She glanced to the open ring case atop his bedside table that nestled an engagement diamond ring inside it. There was still traces of blood visible on the casing. It was on his palm when they found him in his hotel room. Without realizing it, his hand turned her face back to him. Her tears wet his hand.
“I almost lost you, Sho. I couldn’t...I don’t....please...” Her words stuttered as the tears continued to flow.
Sho only smiled as he wiped her tears.
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Jun clenched the box of cake with his one hand. He could hear the soft voices that came from inside the room. The voices was soft and maybe a hint of laughter. It was an odd thing to hear considering what the man inside the room went through. And yet, everyone could recover. He sympathized with him and at the same time, disliked what he did. He did not know if the other man would welcome his presence but Jun had to know. Then they would talk. He knocked on the door before he entered.
Selina sat in a stool near Sakurai’s bed. She wore a gray wool dress with leggings underneath paired with black ankle boots. Her coat and bag was set off to another table. Sakurai still wore his hospital garb. Between them were a few pictures. Both were surprised at his arrival. Nobody in the cafe knew what happened to Sakurai. Jun talked with Ayu if it was possible to visit him. Ayu asked permission from Sakurai and oddly, he permitted it. It appeared to Jun that Sakurai did not let Selina know.
“I am sorry to interrupt your conversation,” Jun started.
Selina only smiled at him and then at Sho. It looked like Sakurai was in a good mood. Maybe it was good that she was there. He acknowledged him with a nod.
“Here. These are the best cakes that the cafe has. I thought you would like them.”
Selina stood up to get the cakes from Jun. “How are you?” he whispered when she was near.
“I am good, thank you,” she answered. Selina turned to Sho. “Let me get some plates and make some tea from the kitchenette here so we can all enjoy the cakes. They are real good, Sho.” With cake in hand, she left the room.
“Thank you for the visit, Matsumoto-san. I hope everything is well with you?” Sho said in greeting.
Jun did not know how to start. So he stood and just said the first thing that came to mind.
“Why? Why are you doing this to her?” Jun demanded.
“Doing what exactly, Matsumoto-san?” Sho looked at him, puzzled.
Jun fists clenched. He can’t believe that this guy was being nonchalant about the entire thing. If he had not dropped by Toma’s restaurant and heard it from Malvika, he would not know anything.
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Flashback:
He has not heard back from her since that time he left the hospital. Jun knew that Selina could probably handle herself. In situations like this, she’d be self-reliant. It did not mean that he would stop worrying.
“Oi. If you are just going to brood over my curry, its best you go home, Matsumoto,” Toma complained. The guy came in for dinner but barely touched his food.
“Leave him be, Toma-kun. Matsumoto-san probably has a lot to think of,” Malvika remarked.
Jun emitted an embarrassed laugh. “Gomen, Toma. I didn’t mean to insult your food.” Jun took another bite.
“Ano, Matsumoto-san, has Selina dropped by the cafe by recently?” Malvika asked.
“Not since last time.” They all knew that what he referred to was that day Sho proposed to Selina. “Why would you ask Malvika?” The woman in question turned to her lover first. When Toma shrugged his shoulders, Malvika turned back to Jun.
“Do you think she’s avoiding the cafe?” Jun was the only one who knew where Selina had been lately it seems. Nobody else knew what happened to Sakurai besides Ryo and Ayu. Everybody else thought that both Selina and Sho were too busy.
“I don’t know if she is but...” Malvika hesitated. They were all friends there and care for each other. She did not know why she hesitated. “Toma and I saw her recently.” Toma nodded. She continued on. “She...Selina did not look too good.”
Toma remembered that day. He was on his way home. Toma waited for the pedestrian light to turn so he could cross. Selina stood in front of him which he didn’t even notice the first time. He had already crossed when the sound of a car honk got his attention. Apparently, Selina was too wrapped in her thoughts that she had not noticed the light change. Toma immediately pulled her to safety. That snapped her out of her reverie. Toma insisted that she go with him to the restaurant and talk with Malvika. With the way she was distracted, it might help to talk with a friend. It did not help that she looked like she hasn’t slept for awhile. She kindly refused and said to send her regards to Malvika.
After he heard what Toma told him, Jun had to know more. So he went to talk to Chri. He had the opportunity to do so when she came in one day.
It looked like Selina had not kept in touch with Chri either. They talked once after the incident in the cafe. But nothing related to what happened. Selina dropped by to apologize to Chri for her rude, drunken behavior that night they went to the club. Selina was upset by being dumped by Sho and retaliated on her friends.
“Did she ever mention anything to you about Sho?” Jun suddenly asked.
Chri thought for a moment. “If I remember right, Sho and Selina were childhood friends. Although their families often met during business parties, it wasn’t until Selina’s father’s operation that the two became close. Her father was very sick and they had to remove the kidneys. They say that it would take awhile to get a donor but miraculously they found one that matched him. It was Sho. He donated one of his kidneys to her father when he was very young.” Chri crinkled her forehead in thought. “After that, they were inseparable. Her father even talked of a marriage agreement between both of the families. Selina wasn’t aware of anything like that and since Sho moved away to take care of family business, forgot about it. That’s all I know.”
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That had been plenty enough for Jun. He just had to hear it directly from him.
“I know you love her but why are you doing this to her, Sakurai-san? Why are you intentionally hurting her?” Jun asked and tried to not let his temper get the best of him.
Sho chuckled softly and gave him a pointed look. “Remember who was hurt here first, Matsumoto-san. I am the one in the hospital,” he stated the obvious.
“But if you don’t stop this, she might be next. Is this the kind of love you have for her?” Jun challenged.
“And what of it?” Sho replied back. His own hands were clenched. “You have no right to judge me on how I do things. At least I have been honest with myself.” He gave a derisive laugh. “I am not going to take that from a man that doesn’t even know what he wants.”
Jun stopped.
“I love Selina. Even before we made that connection. I have known her all my life. I lost a chance with her and I am not going to let that happen again, much less to lose to someone like you. Someone who can’t even decide.” Sho turned his head away dismissing. Jun headed towards the door. Before he left, there was one more thing that Sho had to say.
“I told you,she’s mine.”
As the other man closed the door behind him, Sho thought that maybe what he said was a mistake. That it might be the final push for Jun to admit to himself that he liked her and go after Selina. Sho chuckled. Did he really need to help a rival? No. He had to focus on himself. And not to ever let her go.
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Jun found her at the hospital’s rooftop. A couple of patients with either family or the nurses lingered around to get a breath of fresh air. Sometimes the hospital can be a bit stifling.
“So, this is where you went,” Jun commented.
Selina turned to the sound of his voice and gave him a tired smile. There were dark circles underneath her eyes. “I...I forgot the cake and tea somewhere. Silly me.” In all honesty, she gave the cake to another family next door. She heard their conversation. Things have been ok between them. They both avoided the obvious topic. But it wasn’t until she overheard their conversation that her worst fear has been confirmed.
Jun took a seat next to her. “You told me that you are good but you don’t look too good,” he commented.
Selina tried to laugh but failed. “Do I look like a zombie now? Probably should have paid more attention to my make-up this morning.”
They both were silent as the clouds rolled by.
Jun wanted to reach out to her. He could almost touch it. The intangible heaviness that surrounded her. Gone was the spunky, spoiled brat that he first met in that cafe. The one that sat next to him was just a hollow shell. Something that was not normal. But what Sakurai-san said hit a spot. He had no right to comfort her. Because unlike Sakurai-san who had the courage to let the entire world know of his love for the woman that sat beside him, Matsumoto Jun remained silent and unimposing.
Until then, he could not touch her. All he can do is be there for her when she did fall.
“Selina...” he started.
She suddenly stood up which surprised Jun. “I have to get home soon. Homework is piling up.”
Selina gathered her things from Sho’s room and they met outside the hospital. As Jun watched warily at the woman beside him, he can’t help but worry. All that talk of homework was a lie. Chri had let him know that for some weird reason, Selina took a break from school. All she did was visit Sakurai-san at the hospital everyday until visiting hours were over. Ayu often dropped by to check on Sakurai and she was always there.
Now as she stood on the opposite platform as they both waited for their respective trains. She waved him goodbye as he entered his own train home. That smile she gave him was a little bit odd. Before Jun could change his mind, the train doors closed on him. He went back to the other side to take one last look at her. Even though the next train hasn’t come yet, there was no sign of her at the platform. Did she leave? As the train pulled away from the station, Jun noticed a commotion on the other side. There was a couple of people that surrounded something. Or someone. All he could see of the person was the black ankle boots and the gray wool dress. As Jun shouted her name through the glass door, nobody heard his cries.
“SELINA!’”
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Chapter notes: This was a real heavy, emotion-wise, chapter for me. Things have suddenly turned good for me so writing something real depressing is a little bit hard for me. Nonetheless, I hope you enjoyed it. Read, Enjoy and Comment!