i just finished listening to Circles.

A song that so fits me right now.

And I couldn't help thinking,

Could all that  I'm looking for be hidden in plain view?

"I believe in clean breaks, I keep the old troubles away
But you're making sure
I was lying when I said
'I can leave,
This behind'"

That's what I wanted to post when the NY trip was derailed. Now I'm thinking it's true again. That I'm never gonna shake these things I don't like, these things I wanna get away from. I keep gettign pulled back to the same ( Read more... )

There's a big  flower outside my window.

Yay.

NY's not happening. It never was. Ever. Nothing that good could ever happen. Ever. No one can ever get out of this town. Ever ( Read more... )

All those heartfelt gritty letters

and one about Starbucks gets the 5 comments

hm.

interesting.

maybe im being too catty but it's something i thought oddly interesting.

maybe some commentary of some sort.

l8r.

 why does it seem like i can ony have half of what i want at any given time?

that something always has to be missing?

sometimes the shiniest piece.

To: liveternal
 "me: finding a good time to slide my escape plan by my parents is harder than i thought
me: maybe i should cook them dinner or something
me: i mean can we be fully functional for like 5 seconds?
me: with no one having or causing another to have a breakdown?"

I definitely might have a viable shot at a New York getaway.'Rents willing and ( Read more... )

So I  had a job interview yesterday. At the Hannah Montana - High School Musical Mecca we call Club Libby Lu's. Once I got over the inital shock of staring into an entire WALL (ok RACK but that was STILL too much) of Zac Efron and the rest of the by compariosn nameless HSM cast it actually seemed like a place I'd enjoy working. Despite the uniform ( Read more... )

 the turbulence ( Read more... )

Takeoffs

it's time to leave
fantasy boys behind
and start living this
for real this time
this is my takeoff
marred by turbulence
the turbulence
of penitence
threatening to shake me down
and ground me in a million pieces
or maybe just like 4 or 5
1 for each of the people I hurt
for each of the things I did wrong

I don't know where I
 am flying to
or ( Read more... )