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After Anime Central and A-Kon I went home and decompressed. I spent 4 days doing little but sleeping, eating, and being as calm as possible. Last semester was very stressful and I wasn't very healthy going into it. The stress from classes and finishing Voices for Tolerance (available for download on iTunes and CDBaby.com) and a severe chemical imbalance in my body all combined to make things very difficult for a long time.
When my body hormones are in flux, it makes me a mean, angry ugly person and when my brain chemicals are in flux I become a withdrawn, dark, unhappy creature, which quite often is unable to listen to reason. (A few heads are nodding...) When both happen at once sometimes it's as if I feel exhausted all the time and sometimes it makes me feel like I am the most insignificant scumworm in the world and I can only annoy and hurt people by being around them or calling them or just existing. Sometimes it gets so bad that it's like living in a trailer home in the middle of the desert with the Joker.
It's extremely difficult to talk about as, to me, it seems like a giant load of Drama. If it was a one-time thing then it would be different but this comes then goes away then comes lapping gently against the pier then goes them comes again and it's there for a few irritating weeks then it goes then it hangs out for a while and things seem sort of grey then it comes back and the Joker is laughing and coming out of the kitchen with something shiny then it goes away for a while then it comes again gently then it goes then it comes again like the Borg assimlating my planet then it goes and so on, ad infinitum. The first few rounds of that are hard to deal with and one of the big ones it really hard but then when the second wave of Borg come 2 years later and everybody thought it was gone, it stresses relationships tremendously. It always comes back. It can be controlled most of the time but there are times when it goes right through the medication, right through the defenses, and right through the yoga.
Thankfully, the Joker and Borg are months away in the past for me now. Modifying my body chemicals has made things significantly better. Meditating and watching my chemicals closely will keep the troubles at bay for now.
After 2 weeks of serious decompression, I went to JAFAX then came back home and had a whole month of decompression, catching up on sleep, taking care of my body, and trying to catch up on things like e-mail and posting and all that. I was supposed t write some scripts but inspiration hasn't regenerated. Yet.It will come.
I've seen a lot of movies this summer, The Dark Knight and Iron Man being the best 2. I'm really happy that they're both amazing and that the "comic book movie" idea has been replaced with movies based on comics. When I was a kid I love Iron Man, Spiderman and Batman and I read everything that had them in it. Year later when they were sold out to Spidey and Friends and there was Batmite and all that. It was so obviously, "Hey kids! See these kids with Spiderman? This could be you!" and it always irritated me because I wanted to see Spiderman interacting with serious criminals and masterminds and monsters. There was no way the kids would get into some sort of true peril because it was a kid's show on broadcast TV so there was nothing really scary or even worth staying through the commercials for. Kids in cartoons always irritated me because there were only there to make trouble for people who were competent.
Anyway, The Hulk was really good as well. The new Indiana Jones movie was a let down for me. The first one was swashbuckling but grounded in reality but this one was not so much. Hancock was enjoyable.
Other than that I've been learning to play the keyboard (piano) a bit, just to do something different for a while. Playing a chromatic instrument is very easy compared to the guitar.
(to quote the page in the link) Here’s a video of the band Rush attempting to play their song “Tom Sawyer” on Rock Band while backstage prior to their appearance on The Colbert Report.
They scored 31% on “expert mode”.
uh huh. Someday they will get there.
What happens when that big red emergency button is pushed in a gas station? That would be a horrible experience!