today will be boring. mom's at work, noah turned on fellowship of the ring then turned it off and disappeared somewhere, i've made it to spy level 10 on kings of chaos, i've finished chapter two (and made the necessary corrections to chapter one) of my "fantasy" novel, my "friend" showed up last night, and tonight rachel wants to go to college and ( Read more... )

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that's it. just .. ugh.

did you ever just .. wish things were different?

i can't sleep. (please read this whole thing -- someone needs to know, i'm desperate)

tonight, for the first time in the whole of my twenty years, i discovered myself crying. i was lying in bed, listening from the far, isolated point of our sisterly bed-triangle to hannah's stories about schoolwork, and rachel's quirky comments, but not really ( Read more... )

i don't want to remember.
i don't want to feel.
i don't want to be the person who started this journal ..
i want to talk about it ..
i want to explode and let out the rotting that began last june ..
to share it with someone ..
someone strong enough to handle it all ..
but mostly i just want to forget ..

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my boyfriend is a jerk.
FINALLY.
i've been sitting here for five minutes trying to think of post material.
way to KILL my kings of chaos account money.
bum.
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