Bingo, Prompt: Failure "1000 Words"
Songfic written for inusongfics
Prompt: Failure
Song: 1000 Words by Jade
Pairing: Inu/Kags
Warnings: None
I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily
I knew when he left that he probably wasn’t going to be coming back. Some women here at the base tried to tell themselves that their husbands were too strong to succumb to the bombs and the bullets; that their husbands couldn’t fail because that was something that happened to other wives. Surely their men would succeed where other could not because the tragedy of those around them couldn’t possibly touch them, but I knew better.
But he didn’t see it that way. He sat there at the breakfast table with me mere hours before he was slated to ship out and all her could talk about was what we were going to do when he came back. This would be his last tour and then we would be free. His adolescent dream of being a hero was long gone now and all he wanted was to make a family with me and leave the horrors of war behind him.
I nodded quietly and smiled when he did, but it was forced on my end. I never knew how he could keep such a happy disposition when we both knew he had the same chances of returning to me as everyone else did. Where others had succeeded he could fail and that was not something that he was going to be able to walk away from.
He spoke of places he always wanted to take me. He spoke over lands overseas that I had never gotten to see. He dream a dream for us in which we were free of anything and everything and where we could be with each other whenever we wanted instead of catering to the whims of the military machine, but I knew better.
Why should I get to have my husband safe at home with me when so many didn’t get that pleasure? Looking into his beautiful honeyed eyes I almost couldn’t see the fear that lay just below the surface, but I knew it was there, and I knew he could see the fear in my brown eyes as well, though he knew I would never say anything about it. This was not the time to be worried. Now was the time to savor the last moment I might have with the man I loved.
I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening:
You'll fight your battles far from me...
Far too easily
She didn’t say anything as he got up to leave. She didn’t return his kiss goodbye as he moved out of the kitchen with his duffle in his hand. She refused to even so much as look at him.
She knew it wasn’t his fault. She knew that if he could he would have stayed by her side. She had known from the beginning what kind of life they were going to have and back then she hadn’t thought it would matter. She had thought that nothing could harm them because they were together. She didn’t stop and think about how she would feel when they were apart.
And now that they were and he was going into certain danger she found that she was more scared than she ever thought she would have been.
"Save your tears 'cause I'll come back."
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain.
When I turned back the pages:
Shouting might have been the answer...
What if I'd cried my eyes out, and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid
To say what's in my heart
He had left her alone back then without her saying a single word. She didn’t tell him she loved him. She didn’t tell him how much she was going to miss him or that she would be praying for his safe return every minute that he was away.
She didn’t let him know that her dreams matched his perfectly and that she believed in him and knew he would never leave her. She never said that she didn’t really believe he wouldn’t come home, that she was now one of those wives who lived in denial.
What she wanted to say was “Failure is not an option.” The way he had said it to her on their first date when she had fallen in love with the soldier in the combat boots as well as the man that was underneath, but nothing came out.
And standing alone under the willow tree two months later as the guns rang out one last salute and the bagpipes played one, she whispered all these things and more to the folded flag she clutched tightly to her breast.
And somewhere out there she knew he had heard her.
'Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though I can't see, I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings
Prompt: Failure
Song: 1000 Words by Jade
Pairing: Inu/Kags
Warnings: None
I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily
I knew when he left that he probably wasn’t going to be coming back. Some women here at the base tried to tell themselves that their husbands were too strong to succumb to the bombs and the bullets; that their husbands couldn’t fail because that was something that happened to other wives. Surely their men would succeed where other could not because the tragedy of those around them couldn’t possibly touch them, but I knew better.
But he didn’t see it that way. He sat there at the breakfast table with me mere hours before he was slated to ship out and all her could talk about was what we were going to do when he came back. This would be his last tour and then we would be free. His adolescent dream of being a hero was long gone now and all he wanted was to make a family with me and leave the horrors of war behind him.
I nodded quietly and smiled when he did, but it was forced on my end. I never knew how he could keep such a happy disposition when we both knew he had the same chances of returning to me as everyone else did. Where others had succeeded he could fail and that was not something that he was going to be able to walk away from.
He spoke of places he always wanted to take me. He spoke over lands overseas that I had never gotten to see. He dream a dream for us in which we were free of anything and everything and where we could be with each other whenever we wanted instead of catering to the whims of the military machine, but I knew better.
Why should I get to have my husband safe at home with me when so many didn’t get that pleasure? Looking into his beautiful honeyed eyes I almost couldn’t see the fear that lay just below the surface, but I knew it was there, and I knew he could see the fear in my brown eyes as well, though he knew I would never say anything about it. This was not the time to be worried. Now was the time to savor the last moment I might have with the man I loved.
I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening:
You'll fight your battles far from me...
Far too easily
She didn’t say anything as he got up to leave. She didn’t return his kiss goodbye as he moved out of the kitchen with his duffle in his hand. She refused to even so much as look at him.
She knew it wasn’t his fault. She knew that if he could he would have stayed by her side. She had known from the beginning what kind of life they were going to have and back then she hadn’t thought it would matter. She had thought that nothing could harm them because they were together. She didn’t stop and think about how she would feel when they were apart.
And now that they were and he was going into certain danger she found that she was more scared than she ever thought she would have been.
"Save your tears 'cause I'll come back."
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain.
When I turned back the pages:
Shouting might have been the answer...
What if I'd cried my eyes out, and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid
To say what's in my heart
He had left her alone back then without her saying a single word. She didn’t tell him she loved him. She didn’t tell him how much she was going to miss him or that she would be praying for his safe return every minute that he was away.
She didn’t let him know that her dreams matched his perfectly and that she believed in him and knew he would never leave her. She never said that she didn’t really believe he wouldn’t come home, that she was now one of those wives who lived in denial.
What she wanted to say was “Failure is not an option.” The way he had said it to her on their first date when she had fallen in love with the soldier in the combat boots as well as the man that was underneath, but nothing came out.
And standing alone under the willow tree two months later as the guns rang out one last salute and the bagpipes played one, she whispered all these things and more to the folded flag she clutched tightly to her breast.
And somewhere out there she knew he had heard her.
'Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though I can't see, I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings