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[jaryd]

Is it so wrong to be tired of pain.. tired of being the receiver, the concerned one, the one that actually believe(d) in something obviously so false as a word. Tired of being proven wrong in thinking that opening yourself is a good thing

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"death is a beautiful lie, love is even worse..."

[faerie_caprice]

i find this entry sincerely saddening.

Re: "death is a beautiful lie, love is even worse..."

[jaryd]

Ya.. I can be an emotional bitch sometimes.. sorry.

[jaryd]

If that's applicable now, I think love to me is bitter green apple sour.

I've been thinking for a while about how to respond to this. Mainly because I've been trying to decide how I feel.. still haven't completely though.

What I do know is that when I was in middle school.. my third poem was about how the idea that we are limited to a number of "great loves" is only true if we close off. It's only through walls and fear that we disallow those emotions, and etc.

The problem is, after so few experiences with so many women it's hard to unidentify or categorize.

Though, I don't think I've had the problem... at least, I never considered that I was being manipulated during any relationship. Only met with fear from "her" end time and time again in some Ground Hog Day role. Each time I'm different, but each time the general course is the same.

I dunno.. I'm healing.. and that post was a part of that process I suppose; as much as I might regret or disagree with it now.

Thank you.