Chapter #22
“You are awake? I thought you aren’t.” “I’m just resting my eyes, I woke up long ago. I heard what Junsu say earlier too…” tears start flowing down the side of his eye. “I didn’t know he is having a hard time all these while. I guess I’m more of an idiot than you hyung.” “Don’t ever blame him for what he did, Yoochun. He have this habit of running away from problems he can’t solve. He doesn’t have a lot of confidence in himself other than dancing, which is the only thing that he is really good at. You are the only one that can make him throw away all the fears about himself. Give him some time, he hasn’t got quite around to face you yet.” “I won’t hyung, I know he has low self-confidence. I’ll wait for him. No matter how long, I’m willing to wait.” Yoochun smile at Jaejoong. “Thank you, Yoochun…” “Hyung, mind sharing what happen to you? Is it after the breakup between you and Yunho hyung?” Yoochun say with hesitance afraid that Jaejoong not liking him mentioning Yunho.
“It’s ok, you can mention him in front of me but only for you.” Jaejoong smile as though he know what is going through Yoochun’s mind. “You are half correct on that. Yunho did cause my condition to worsen, but I got it long before I even meet Junsu." Jaejoong begin his confession. "A lot of stuff makes me felt depress about myself, but I have to thank Junsu to be there. He help my condition to get better by being a friend and a support back then. After I got to know Changmin and the guys, I got even better and by the time I met Yunho I thought I’m ‘healed’. However things take a turn for the worse when our relationship starts straining. My depression comes back in a bigger fold and it’s enough to kill me. I told myself I can’t let anyone know about it, I don’t want anyone to look at me as if I’m so pitiful. I endure, since I have been doing it for years already what with this bit difference matters. But I know I’ve change. I no longer smiling and socialising, I work myself to the maximum and shut myself in my own world not letting anyone in. You can ask KIbum, I bet he will say the same thing to you.”
Yoochun jaw dropped after hearing Jaejoong’s confession about himself. “When I heard from Junsu, I just thought that I can help you with what you are going through. I don’t want to see friends around me to undergo the same thing, not that I like to suffer myself though. I’m weird aren’t I?” Jaejoong laugh. “You aren't, hyung. You are brave, you face up to it despite what has happened." "Yoochun, I'm not brave as what you think...” “Maybe not to you but to me you are.” Yoochun affirm Jaejoong.
“Thanks for the compliment.” Jaejoong clasp his hands over Yoochun's. Silence filled the room for a moment. Breaking the awkwardness Jaejoong ask him, “What about you? If you are not ready to share yet, it's okay. We can talk about it the next time when you are ready.” “Hyung, I...” suddenly there is a knock on the door. The both of them look alarm. For a second Jaejoong panic, he is afraid that it might be Yunho coming in. He has not get himself ready to face his ex-boyfriend yet like Junsu. As for Yoochun, he is afraid that Yunho will see Jaejoong here and the situation will be even more awkward. As the door of the room is open, the both of them find themselves catching their breath towards the person that is going to appear behind the door.
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“It’s ok, you can mention him in front of me but only for you.” Jaejoong smile as though he know what is going through Yoochun’s mind. “You are half correct on that. Yunho did cause my condition to worsen, but I got it long before I even meet Junsu." Jaejoong begin his confession. "A lot of stuff makes me felt depress about myself, but I have to thank Junsu to be there. He help my condition to get better by being a friend and a support back then. After I got to know Changmin and the guys, I got even better and by the time I met Yunho I thought I’m ‘healed’. However things take a turn for the worse when our relationship starts straining. My depression comes back in a bigger fold and it’s enough to kill me. I told myself I can’t let anyone know about it, I don’t want anyone to look at me as if I’m so pitiful. I endure, since I have been doing it for years already what with this bit difference matters. But I know I’ve change. I no longer smiling and socialising, I work myself to the maximum and shut myself in my own world not letting anyone in. You can ask KIbum, I bet he will say the same thing to you.”
Yoochun jaw dropped after hearing Jaejoong’s confession about himself. “When I heard from Junsu, I just thought that I can help you with what you are going through. I don’t want to see friends around me to undergo the same thing, not that I like to suffer myself though. I’m weird aren’t I?” Jaejoong laugh. “You aren't, hyung. You are brave, you face up to it despite what has happened." "Yoochun, I'm not brave as what you think...” “Maybe not to you but to me you are.” Yoochun affirm Jaejoong.
“Thanks for the compliment.” Jaejoong clasp his hands over Yoochun's. Silence filled the room for a moment. Breaking the awkwardness Jaejoong ask him, “What about you? If you are not ready to share yet, it's okay. We can talk about it the next time when you are ready.” “Hyung, I...” suddenly there is a knock on the door. The both of them look alarm. For a second Jaejoong panic, he is afraid that it might be Yunho coming in. He has not get himself ready to face his ex-boyfriend yet like Junsu. As for Yoochun, he is afraid that Yunho will see Jaejoong here and the situation will be even more awkward. As the door of the room is open, the both of them find themselves catching their breath towards the person that is going to appear behind the door.
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