Chapter #27
“Yoochun hyung, regarding your dance lesson, we will start again in a week’s time. So for currently just take your time to recover first.” read Donghae’s message in his Motorola backflip. “Sure, thanks Donghae.” he typed and sent. Sitting at his room balcony, Yoochun stared into the space again. The past few days he has been spacing out ever since he is discharged. Though Yunho or Jaejoong drop by now and then to take a look at him, sometimes Jaejoong will cook dinner for the both of them. But the only one that occupies his mind all the time is just Junsu and nothing else.
“You still keep this picture?” Jaejoong asked when he saw the picture of Junsu, Yoochun, Yunho and him together in Yoochun’s living room when he visited for the first time. “It’s his favourite picture. He said in here hold the happiest time of the four of us… that shining aura of being deeply in love… nothing could replace it.” Yoochun explained while clutching the frame tightly in his hands, tears are threatening to fall soon. Jaejoong understand what Yoochun has explained. Indeed like that Junsu said, it was the happiest moment for the four of them. No matter what happen unless amnesia, the four of them can’t forget that moment. It was his favourite picture too… but however he doesn’t have it anymore ever since he left that door. /* I wonder if the picture is still there… did he still live there now? */ “Hyung,” Yoochun’s voice broke the silence. “Hmm?” Jaejoong turn his attention back to Yoochun to realise that the latter has tears in his eyes. “You know where is Junsu right? Is he all right? Is he taking care of himself? Can I meet up with him? Please hyung, I know you do know his whereabouts.” In a flash, an insecure and needing Yoochun surfaces in front of him. Jaejoong was taken aback with his questions and request. In regards to Junsu’s whereabouts he doesn’t have the heart to tell Yoochun yet. “Yoochun, I wish I can know where is he, but apparently he is not contactable at the moment. I’m worried about him too…” replying with a sorry tone, Jaejoong look at Yoochun sadly.
/* Forgive me for lying, Yoochun. I can’t bear to break the news to you when you are in this condition. I’m sorry. */
Looking at the same photograph, Yoochun can’t help but to caress Junsu’s face. /* I miss you so much. Are we able to meet soon? Am I still able to see you again? */ The doorbell rings breaking all his thoughts in a second. Getting out the self-created shield, he is in that soulless self that is just moving around not feeling anything and no emotions. Opening the door to see Yunho at the steps with packets of food and soda. “Hey Chun,” Yunho greeted “Hyung…” “I bet you haven’t had your dinner yet. So I came here with some food and soda, lets have our own small gathering.” Walking towards the kitchen’s direction, Yunho tells Yoochun the plan for the night. Yoochun understands that Yunho is concern about him, but right now he doesn’t care much other than Junsu. “Hyung, you don’t need to come here almost everyday. I know you care about me and you are almost dead tired after work. So it’s ok with me if you don’t come here, I can take care of myself.” Yunho stop in the midst of unpacking the food and look up at Yoochun, shock is the only available word that runs though his mind.
Never will he thought that Yoochun would say that to him. He doesn’t think that it’s a chore or torture to him because Yoochun is his best friend ever since high school and even to ask him to die for Yoochun, he won’t be oblige to do it. “Chun, I don’t care whether I’m living or dead. As long as the concern is regarding you, even if I die I will do it. You are important to me. You know my past better than anyone even him when we are together back then he doesn’t know a lot. It’s ok to you but it isn’t to me. You are someone I’m willing to use my life to protect. You said that you are able to take care of yourself, if so why did you even land in the hospital in the first place?” Yoochun is speechless. He knows very well about Yunho, but never does it came across his mind that Yunho willing to protect him even to the extend of giving up his life for him. Yunho is right too. If he had taken care of himself, he won’t even land in the hospital in the first place. Junsu, Junsu, Junsu was all that occupies his mind.
/* I miss you so much. A reply will do, I don’t care anything else. Just a reply from you and I’ll be okay. Reply me will you? */
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