i had a panic attack last night.

I am up quite late and downloading music again. I've worked the past three days and I'm doing pretty all right. School starts soon and I can't wait ( Read more... )

i don't understand why security and me are such polar opposites.
can't i just be comfortable with everything for an extended period of time?
i fuck myself time and time again, i just want to relax.

i think that i am content.
happy new year.

I do not understand.

Also, fuck my computer for not burning Andrew's cd. I have tried four times and none have worked.

I. Want. Edward. Cullen.
NOWWWWWWWWWWW.

Thanksgiving was good. It felt nice to be with my family, and I saw twilight at night with Kate. That was also really nice, I haven't seen her since my birthday. She's such a sweet girl. Then after I hung out with Jamie, Trevor, Nick, Alyssa, Steph, and Ashley. Got home really late and then stayed up even later talking to someone. Then I got to ( Read more... )

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I doubt myself and my work so much. There is a fine line between being critical and tearing something apart, and I do not know where that line is. Nothing is ever good enough and I wonder if I am just too picky or if things are just too shitty.

I guess time will tell. I'll figure everything out, I am just overwhelmed and I can't wait to go home.

Someone please buy me the following ( Read more... )