Hi journal. I really am failing school now, and i guess i should care, but i dont.
Im certain that education is the key to any type of success yet that still stirs nothing in me to want school. 
Isnt that disgusting-school- just the word is nasty. 
You know whats a good word??? Chlamydia. 
Just saying it. I know its an STI and everything, but its still ( Read more... )

 At the moment I'm listening to Saosin. My music's become way more explicit. I'm trying to avoid rap, though. It's pretty hard, and I dont struggle with natural things(well in this case), so I'll go with the flow.

Ashleys in jamaica for awhile

Darryl comes back thursday, 3/20/08 at 10:30. Ive got the emotional support of Teai till then, I dont know ( Read more... )

I now live across from bayswater. 
I'd be nice to finally move somewhere not in queens. 
Like california. Where its never cold(I think), and i could maybe breathe (probably not) and the home of Hollywood Undead. 
A change of scenery is all i fricken ask and i dont even get that. 
It doesnt really matter anyways, if i think long and hard about it.

I ( Read more... )

I went to see the ball drop with teai. We got there at 5pm and stood and waited till 12, by that time my heels burned and the other parts to my feet were numb. We met alot of interesting characters, there was this man and women and the women was absolutley gorgeous. It was weird what made her pretty,she had this happiness from inside, that just ( Read more... )

     Bye. Im into more music now. Nirvana, Sia, The Pierces, The Briggs, Jennifer Terran and so on and so forth. I like Nirvana, and he was pretty.                       I used to be really motivated and all, thats how i got where i am. Ive lost it, so Im starting to fail. I'm becoming a slacker and thats all i here from my teachers now ( Read more... )

There is no point in taking this writing class, yes, i like enjoy writing, but we dont do much of that here, its mostly research for some paper thats due, hence me on the laptop in school. I cant help but think is life passing me by? I feel as if i should be doing something yet im not. Im gooing to find something new soon. I think i might need some ( Read more... )

Hello, journal. Im thinking about a lot of stuff, so i decided to write ( Read more... )

ummm, i think im becoming depressed. my dark  descent into depression. id be just like mom, who wants that? never mind. ill find some way to escape from the darkness or not.... im not dancing right now, like im not attending lessons cause my mom has no money, but soon i will cause shes geting a second job. which is good and bad beause i wont ever ( Read more... )

Well, lets think. whats new in this boring life of mine? I'm failing physics, im guessing my average is about 84 and i need an 85 or something dumb like that. i am passing math with an 86 though. Yay, at least I'm passing. Umm, my room is turning out to be Ballin, my old room was purple and green and at this house im not allowed to paint the walls ( Read more... )

i like to think of myself as not closed minded and i've already decided that i'm going to expirence things in my life, you know try new stuff and what not. so, today i smoked weed. it was okay, i felt more calm and relaxed. i smoked with my friends-jay, genie and this other chick who is pretty. it made me slower in my thinking and reactions, it ( Read more... )