bit better

[jaydee_lady]

Kay, so I'm feeling a bit better this morning but I'm pretty much a ball of disappointment and confusion at the moment. I've got to babysit today in town, which is too bad cuz I was gonna ask Curtis to hang out with me afterward (due to circumstances, I didn't get the chance to ask him..) so now I'll prolly get stuck by myself for about 4 hours.

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Nothing but saddness

[taken_by_aiken]

dont expect him to do anything... you just be more disappointed when he doesnt ... guys dont get it... they dont understand how they are supposed to do things to make up for what they did to hurt us... half the time they arent even aware that they hurt us... to them it was nothing... to us it was everything... and its like our world has come crashing down around us and they dont even know it... and it hurts... it hurts a hell of alot... and there is nothing you can do about it except...
grieve.
accept.
rebel.
submit.
And then I repeat the cycle.
they dont care... and it is us who have to stop caring so much... because they wont change... they dont have it in them to feel... or to understand... and they wont try to ... because they think we are silly... silly and stupid... they call it "drama" ... we call it "love" or "hate" or someother emotion we are feeling at the time... nothing makes them hurt and nothing makes them cry...
a good friends once told me
CASTRATION = THE NEW FEMINISM!!!
believe it!

-Chelsea

Re: Nothing but saddness

[jaydee_lady]

Yeah I know exactly what you mean chels- it's not the first time I've been here before. "Drama queen".."not that big of a deal" .. "overreacting".. "just get over it already".. guys totally don't get how much these things hurt. I've been humiliated and rejected- it's not like I'm gonna feel bad about it. But you're right- he probably won't have the common decency to even phone me tonight. I won't get my hopes up. Whatever, all I can do is keep on trucking and hope one day he grows up.

CASTRATION = THE NEW FEMINISM!!!

I've heard that when a guy refuses to commit, it's called fear of relationships- but when girl refuses to commit, it's called independance :P Can't say I quite agree on that point.

Re: Nothing but saddness

[taken_by_aiken]

Amen Sista!

-Chelsea