i have no title for this post
(on second thought, I should probably put a little disclaimer that I do not wish to insult anyone, especially of any faith here. this is just me writing out my weird thoughts.)
When I was a kid, I had this ludicrous dream of wanting to be a nun. Yeah, those [overly] dedicated, nice, spiritual ladies of the cloth (or at least from experience, anyway). *insert uncontrollable laughter here*
Well, it wasn’t certainly because I was particularly religious or something. (Although, yes I did attend a conservative and somewhat uber-ly religious Catholic school in my elementary years.) No, it was simply because I hated doing chores. Especially washing clothes. So what does THAT have to do with being a nun? Apparently, I had this misguided notion that nuns don’t wash their clothes. Like never, ever. They do wear the same drab habit every single day so me being ME, I believed that nuns were so friggin’ prudent and frugal that they opt to forego the whole wash and wear concept. And the 6 year old me jumped for joy and got ready to jump the [Catholic] bandwagon. Rejoice, ye lazy girl!
I think I actually hung on to that laziness-inspired dream for at least until I was in third or fourth grade. Yep. Doing everything I can to avoid all future chores.
Fast-forward to twenty years later and here I am. Not knowing what I exactly want to be. Le story of my life. I have this theory that maybe I’m just too much of a scaredy-cat to properly face the things I do want in life. I sort of envy the kid I used to be who was brave enough to actually follow through with whatever crazy, demented out-of-this-world, what-the-eff-you’re-thinking ideas she might have had.
Downsides of growing up, I guess?
Then again, maybe it’s just me. (and yea baby, it all boils down to this. so much for theory.)
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On a more upbeat and slightly random (okay, a WHOLE LOT of randomness involved) note, I recently learned from history class the difference between bands and tribes. Bands are essentially more familial in structure, close kins and all that shizz. Essentially, bands are smaller groups made up of at least 5 people so bands can actually be family, but it’s not necessary. The “bonds” grow out of living together, established through the years. Tribes are a larger group, more often than not, composed of bands - though not necessarily - sharing the same cultural ties. Anyway, the point of all this rambling is the fact that I believe I have stumbled upon the history of boy bands. Not the real bands, mind you, but more like the pop-sy, hip-swaying, hair gelled and cutesy ones of the JE kind. Think about it. Old Johnny probably got the idea from some old dusty, history book, too.
Hahaha. And yes, this is what I was smirking for oh-so-brilliantly all throughout class. Which my professor might’ve mistaken for me understanding what he was actually talking about. Or not.
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On the fangirl-ish side of life, I think I am genuinely about to fall for a certain Kamenashi Kazuya. Le fickle heart simple cannot resist this glorious, glorious beauty of a man.
lol, wait let’s play this clean. Haha, I meant this:
That smile. THAT FRIGGIN’ BOYISH SMILE. Be still, my heart. <3
And most especially, THIS.
THIS is actually the side of Kame that is making me crush on him like a totally idiotic high schooler. Baseball!Kame rocks~ GAH. I just want to watch him play ball [lol, no pun intended!] all day long. And that says a lot for a girl who doesn’t do, know or has even the slightest iota of interest on any sport. I just love it whenever I see him anywhere near a stadium or a bat. Haha, he completely turns into a bubbly little boy on a Christmas morning. Gah. Gah. So many heartfelt feels…! It's like those moments are when Kame’s the happiest, free from any inhibition.Plus the fact that I find so manly when he’s holding a bat, all sweaty and the tiniest hint of frustration on his face when he doesn’t get to swing his bat perfectly. GAH. CAN I GO HUG HIM??
So yeah, I am currently on a kamenashi obsession mode. Not yet sure if this shall continue to a full-fledged, a hundred percent, I’m-in-love fan girl mode. lol, again excuse the insanity of the fan girl in me. xD
*On a side note, I think I won’t be this obsessed in kame if jin was alive in the entertainment scene. I miss jin and his voice! JAPONICANA is not sustaining my jin-cravings anymore. haha. xD
**And now on a somewhat akame-ish note, the recent kame photo shoots in several mags can’t help but remind me of jin’s! And there are a lot when I swear, I see jin. Will make a pic spam post on that later.
***On another I’m-currently-in-love-with-kame note, I actually want to use ‘kazuya’ - just because ‘kazuya’ sounds so cute and pretty and sexy all at the same time - but my laptop’s keyboard is broken and yes, the last letter of the alphabet is amiss. I’m using the on-screen keyboard for the letter ‘z’ but one can only make use of it so many times without getting all tired and frustrated. Haha.
****And apparently, there are rumors of a YamaNade SP this coming spring. Let it be true! One of my all-time fave doramas back on the screen, just in time for my (and kame’s! *bluuuush!*) birthday. And yes, I am extremely head over heels the fact that kame and I are both blood type b and born in February. Haha, demented little me. xD
pic credits: galuvkat_tun