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Shannan's old Deadjournal.
I have to say something I can't keep this locked up inside it is driving me crazy. I would have written something along these lines a long time ago if I knew that no one else was capable of reading this. I dont feel like the person who claims to be my best friend really is my best friend. basically...that's it. I don't feel like I'm all that ( Read more... ) -
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Up before ten on a week end. Thats an improvement
Thinking about going for a run.
Looking at TV's today & thinking about big money
Cheap electronics that have no business being so cheap.
The perks of my job.
How can you can you make someone such a bad guy,
when all they did was tell the truth?
How can I be the common enemy of so many people for honesty?
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Work work work work. Play. I'm happy when I'm with you.
I'm disgusted by girls playing with boys feelings.
Disgusted with other girls that call me a liar.
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It's so easy for him you know? It comes pouring out of him in notes and phrasing. And I'm stuck here watching him do what I love. It's this wall again. Voice isn't good enough, can't play any instruments any more. I've lost my gift, and it hurts. But he plays his guitar next to me, and all I want t do is scream -
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What will I do if I get sunk so far into these words that I can no longer pull myself out of them?
These words are everywhere but i can't write them down with any coherency... the order is wrong the adjectives are nouns and the verbs are pronouns.
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21. You’re fixing the hole in my heart now ( Read more... ) -
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Isn't it strange how the moment you are out of my house....
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Today I went to school, left at one (HAVE TO STOP DOING THAT), went to a salon visit at regis, FREAKED.ME.OUT. doing a haircut, wash, and style in 30 min- 1 hour. WTF. omg omg omg. I am not confident I will ever be able to achieve this. ugh. Plus the weather, which was GOR-GE-OUS this morning is now disgusting and freezing. On the plus side, the ( Read more... ) -
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Why do I have a journal. I don't keep journally things in here. Sometimes I write some poetry that no one except my boyfriend really cares about, I don't really have very many friends on here who still keep a livejournal. I should keep a journal though... a lot happens in my life. and writing is something I enjoy and something I feel very distant ( Read more... ) -
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he's my angel
hold him up to the light
see how the light loves him, how it makes him shine.
I adore him.
He has saved me.