Thoughts on Ronin before I sleep.

[jaysummers]

I drank a lot today. As one of my friends said, "Today the universe can waive the 'no drinking before 5pm' rule." And beyond the drinking, I spent time with people, forcing myself to constantly be around people even though I just wanted to find a hole somewhere and die myself. Being around people is healthy, it helps me cope and recover and

Comments

[laverinth]

David, I cried just reading this. I am so sorry, hon, and you have as much love as I can send over the wires.

[rel13612]

I know its little solace, but this was the best short pieces of writing I've ever seen to show the connection between an owner and his pet. I only wish I could respond as well. You gave just enough detail about Ronin to make him much more than a stereotypical cat, before telling your story.
You may not feel like you are coping well, but I was impressed with you writing so well, so soon after the event. You shall make it through this. The dead always live on in the memories of the living, thus Ronin will always live within you.

[dame_grise]

He was so young, but he knew you loved him. I'm sorry you don't have long to mourn.

[sealwhiskers]

I am so glad that you had those two with you yesterday. During this whole ordeal, I've honestly felt unsure if I would qualify as a good enough friend to meddle and be around, but you have been in my thoughts many times.

I had a big beautiful cat, much like Ronin in the 90's, his name was Nils, and he developed a tumor in his mouth. The tumor was situated above many clusters of vital nerv endings and malignant, and even though my baby still looked super healthy and happy, I was told by multiple vets that the most humane thing to do was to put him to sleep while he was still not suffering too much, and that it could just end up one way.

And yet, I still wonder, from time to time, if I did the right thing, if I shouldn't have continued to try to find a doctor with another idea, I think this uncertainty comes from Nils looking relatively healthy on his last trip to the vet. In your case with Ronin, David, there is no doubt what so ever that you did the right thing.

[jaysummers]

Thank you, Ivona. *hugs*

And for the record, I do consider you a "good enough friend," but the fact that you tried to do what you felt was best for me means a lot.

Again, thank you for everything.

*hugs*

[caralindacat]

I'm terrible at offering condolences, so I'll just offer my support and presence, if you need someone to talk to. (isa karra)

Re: *hugs*

[jaysummers]

Thank you.