i have this feeling...its hard for me to breathe when i think about it...i shake and my heart pounds. idk why but im scared of so many things and i want to cry. i feel constricted not my whole self and it makes me afraid. im lost and i want to be found i had meaning but now im just lost in a world with people that only say there there because they ( Read more... )

!WOOT WOOT WOOT WOOTANG!

HELLS YEA!

lol this is soo NOT jay, HAHA but its a secret who i is!!!!!

((signed))

DEAC

man this weekend...turned into a lot of confusing and amazing times...it would be even more amazing if i could DEAC all the time maybe some good decisions can be made...if not i guess i still have bryce lol

oh man its a three day weekend yes you heard me say it right THREE DAY WEEKEND man that sounds rly good rly rly good almost as good as finding a dollar bill in your pocket or coming home and seeing left over pizza in the fridge and eating for a snack idk if its that good but it sure is damn good! so my plans are good but would be better if everyone ( Read more... )

i hate making hard decisions and hurting people well i know what i want and im goin for it every one wish me luck!!

so today was a day that resembled that one day way back when i think every one knows what im talking about right....? thought so. so today my grandmother and aunt came and i forgot all about it and invited bryce jake liset and haden over....mistake i got in trouble and they were like they need to leave and i was like ok...i only rly wanted bryce ( Read more... )

well had church today that was fun saw people that i havent seen in a while got a lot of hugs and enjoyed sppendin the day with my youth leader billy. got home and took a nap now im waitin on nate to call me back i desperately need to get in that hot tub oh man i can feel it now its soooooo soooooothing. well school tomorrow guess ill c everyone ( Read more... )

you know for the first time in a long time i feel like things are getting back on track. the past three months have been filled with so much...pain but now idk maybe its the break maybe its me and nate realizing that our friendship is the most important thing or maybe its brycew and his damn man fro but things are rly back on track. im having fun ( Read more... )

you know getting back from virginia and having a night out with the boys was fun me bryce nate and adam all spent the night over here and we had a lot of fun. but rly the day sux. i wish people would follow there hearts and make the right decision on what they feel maybe then it would be easier maybe then i could be happy...but people dont so im ( Read more... )

man....i leave tomorrow....you know im more depressed than i thought i would be true theres no one up here but i think thats the good thing. i can let my mind wander and just try to get a grip on my life. i think ive done a pretty good job. truely i miss bryce lol im definintely hangin out with you for the rest of the damn week i need some of that ( Read more... )