Magic, feeling it. Seeing it seems to be a thing of the past. It doesn't really visit much like it did when i was a kid. A point comes when you reach maturity that you start seeking the how, and why's of things. Once you learn how something works, or once you start seeking out an answer, the magic itself dies. It is no longer that amazing ( Read more... )

Sleeps with Butterflies ( Read more... )

today was fun, i woke up at 9:30, got dressed. Cleaned my room, then off to aco. I painted my room today, i've ben thinking of a project, something to help me feel like i'm building something. It's working. I feel great, like i'm actually acomplishing something other than my schooling or work. Then i met with mobie,trina,amber, and stephanie. ( Read more... )

Chicago was fun, yet again. I was planning on going to vegas the first week of may, but the money is not there to make it happen. It would have costed me like a grand, and i could have it, but don't want to spend it. O well. Brother, i luv ya you bitch, thanks for the place to stay. We'll have to do it again. Possibly instead of vegas, i may go ( Read more... )

it's was one of those dreams ( Read more... )

i am begining to realize that ( Read more... )

for someone who loves being in control. There have only been a few instances where i haven't controlled things. Those times were fun. I wish i had some times like that again. For me to relenquish my control though, is seldom. O well. Just a recent thought i had about the subject.

have you ever wanted to just vanish?

today, was crap. Internally i feel something shifting. Whether that's a good thing or not, i'm not sure. But it's always onwards, right?!? My 24th B-day is coming next week, and i'm not upset that i'm a year older. It's mostly just a reflective worry in my mind. Soon it'll be 6 years since i first admitted to myslef that i'm gay. I live my ( Read more... )

Move a step closer you know that I want you ( Read more... )