rambeling angst
~ I hate christmas. Its not worth all the bother. all Ive done is clean and clean and decorate and clean today and for what reason...so we can all have a hapoy christmas right? Becuase yeah this year will turn out like last year and the year before and the other 15 years before that. It feels like I'm the only one left that feels as I want my family around me for Christmas. Siouxlas ment to be comming down but she said she would call and she hasn't...so who knows whats happening with that. Mum and Pete will be Mum and Pete tomorrow and tottaly ignore me. Which is great and tottaly sucks ass. Sometimes I hate my family. Mums says shes trying to make a real effort this year - she even boiught a turky and we havent had one of thoese in YEARS god forbid we might accualy have a fuckign tradiational dinner this year.
I fuckign hate Christmas always turns out to be one bight fuckign dissapointment. Though I should know not to expect too much fromt he family that wouldnt even get on enough to sit round a table and eat together for my birthday.