okay soooooo...
i havent slept in a very long time... i am wired for some reason... and i have been listening t records and smoking cigarettes since 6 a.m.

eeesh.
currently listening to : TheQueenIsDead.

my dad told me i was a showcase atheist and probably going to end up in hell but he will pray for me.

5 years ago i was in the biggest rut of my life. I put all my horrible feelings, tears, pain, hate, into stupid drugs and bad habits cause i hated every thing about me. Then, i was alone one night and thinking about the worst thing i could possibly do to myself.. but i had two best friends that came to help me out.I have been doing so good. Changed ( Read more... )

so someone just told me this past week was alfred hitchcock week on amc?

i wouldnt have stepped out of the house had i known.
this is rough.
damn.

someone watch, any of these:vertigo/champagne/rebecca/rear window/psycho/thebirds/marnie, with me this week?

please someone come with me to the empty bottle on the 27th.

THU. 9/27/07 (9:00pm; $15)
The Empty Bottle
Pere Ubu
Ulrich Schnauss
Hair Police Glenn Jones & Jack Rose

i am soo all about Ulrich Schnauss. Its gonna be fantasmic

and

SAT. 10/27/07 (10:00pm; $12)
The Empty Bottle
Jesu
Torche
Fog

i dont even need to justify this. sooo good.

I was weaker than i have been today... in 5 months. AFter 5 months of not acting upon my stupid urges i did it. I feel so defeated. MY Back was hurting so bad, and then this fight errupted between my mother and I. I was stressed ...i tried drawing..i tried listening to some music...but ugh ( Read more... )

people are really selfish.

friendships are two ways and not only on one persons terms.
not many people seem to get that.

so i was compelled to listen to saves the day all night and look at old pictures...annnnnd paint.

also .. if anyone wants to see
"Gates of paradise " by Ghiberti with me at the art Institute i would really love some company. I am willing to go as many times while they are here from Florence. 3 beautiful panels all bronze and gorgeous.

so gorgeous.

my back is in so much pain, thought i should add that again.

-yesterday i fell downstairs and hurt my back really fucking bad. Its awful.Definetley worse today. Lina, was a good friend and didnt crack up laughing just chuckled a little and helped me up. I'm pathetic ( Read more... )

in the past week or so i have been getting some shit from people about forgiving people i shouldn't forgive and letting people back in my life that i shouldn't give a second chance to. This is my mentality right now ( Read more... )