I just had three cups of tea, so now I feel a little shaky from all the caffine, and I was drinking it to try and calm myself down!!!! I couldn't sleep last night, so I started writing a letter. It wasn't to anyone in particular...it ended up being seven pages long, and I'm just going to tear it up anyway, but I wanted to see my life reflected on ( Read more... )

The tounge is such an easy thing to misuse. I wish so often that I could just eat my words and rewind time; instead I end up hurting people and God. I really have to work on this. Plus I have the worst temper ever and I am always ready to blow up. Rggg ( Read more... )

Check this out!!! This is the best thing ever! if possible, watch with disco music!!!! http://www.subservientchicken.com

So I went to Abi's today and we watched Dumb and Dumber (good stuff!) It really helped to get my mind off all that's going on. I think one of God's greatest gift to us is the gift of friendship!!! Well other than getting caught in a freak hail/rain downpour and getting utterly soaked on the way home, my evening has been the definition of boring. I ( Read more... )

I didn't realize how many people perceived me in a way that's not...i don't know, me. I'm so used to wearing a mask around, and then when I do act like how I really feel it catches people off guard, and they say I'm "not acting like myself". I wonder if that upsets God. I want to be pleasing to Him and live for Him only. So when I'm acting a ( Read more... )

Imagine this ( Read more... )

I want to go back to AZ and get away from all this rain. I feel homesick, I miss everyone like HECK ( Read more... )

I keep letting the people I love most down. (I'm very sorry if I've done that to any of you, or if I've hurt any of you.) i'm tired and I think I'm going to crash early. I really want to go to the beach. I love taking naps on the beach, haven't done that in awhile. I wish I had a cat. then I could curl up in it's (clean!!!) litter box and pretend i ( Read more... )

So today I'm going up to Eugene with Abi and Co. to do stuff. Who knows what? You never know with us. lol ( Read more... )

Oh wow. This is hard. (Sorry, I'm gonna be a little vauge.) I just need a ton of prayer, it's been so hard to stay strong; I feel like God is the only one who knows how I feel, and that can get really frustrating. I want that fire back that was burning in me when I got here. It feels like all this oregon rain has put it out. I feel like I can't ( Read more... )