now I know why my life coach said to have a period of time every week where I'm at my whim...because I don't want to do anything I have planned. Don't want to do anything at all ( Read more... )

I got my headshots done today.  There's 3 I think I can use at least for the time being.  I'm looking forward to getting back to auditions again, getting back to working on stuff all the time ( Read more... )

Dear Universe, What is my destiny?  spell it out please.  Thanks ( Read more... )

I'm riding a bit of an emotional rollercoaster lately trying to sort out the usual winter stuff..my wants and needs, what I've accomplished, where I've headed and how I want to be.  I feel that my life and my relationship are very complicated and I can't paint anything with a happy or a sad or mad brush and get to live with this strange mix of ( Read more... )

Jason got back from Alberta last night.  I was really good to see him and really good to reconnect.  He is BURNT out. I hope he gives himself a break ( Read more... )

I know this is a "firstworldproblem" but I feel like I've lost a pet, in a way.  I need it so much and just don't have the cash to rebuild-or buy a new one. It would have cost me at least a thousand bucks to fix it ( Read more... )

When my mom was 15, she saw her a-typical pigsty of a teenaged bedroom, cleaned it up and never had a messy room again.  I am not my mother.  I cherish a clean house, it calms my brain and I'm not afraid to have people over, but I get irritated at having to do it because it just takes too much time ( Read more... )

I always start to write and then stop myself.  I'm working the sad and insecurity out of my heart and it's hard to rewire.  This journal has always been a way for me to get my true feelings out into the world.  But I don't want to put that self out there so much ( Read more... )

Airfare just dropped $300.  Anxiety abating.

I am smoothing over details that have been forgotten in the throes of business ( Read more... )