Thinking too much claims happiness yet again.

[jazzvandoren]

Well folks, once again, your humble narrator has taken too long to decide on a course of action, and the window of opportunity has basically closed

Comments

:/

[hugs__not_drugs]

you're so vague.
if you explain the situation to me, i'd like to try to talking to you about it.
feel better love.

don't listen to depressing music either.
god knows that won't help.

Re: :/

[jazzvandoren]

Sweetie pie, you actually are one of the only people who I have actually sent the basic details to. I'm vague, because if I were to be specific, too many people would know far too much and potentially blow my world up.

**Suicide is painless, is the theme song from MASH. Anyone who knows me would be extremely shocked and surprised at how many times I have contemplated this option...so far, my intelligence has always won the battles.

It might be a while before I truly feel better. It was a pretty intensely downhill day on the emotional rollercoaster yesterday. So, I guess until things start to look better for me, bring on the greenage - at least I don't yak after that.

Re: :/

[hugs__not_drugs]

yep.
i don't rely on that anymore.

:)

Re: :/

[jazzvandoren]

it still helps me.

[lea724]

I don't know what to say except that I'm so sorry these things are happening.

[jazzvandoren]

Thanks, I guess.

[lilraw]

Now you see here Charles...just yesterday I was thinking to myself--the way I often think of you-about how pisses me off that you seem to suffer from the "nice guys finish last" syndrome...but then I thought more. I went through a list of every person I know-and they all think that you kick ass!

I almost think that I know what you are talking about.

What are you doing later? You should give me a call and we can hang out.

[jazzvandoren]

I wish I had gotten this earlier.

I'm not looking for a pity party - that was not the purpose of this posting...but if your insight into my mind is accurate (which you have an amazing knack for), then maybe - just maybe, the mental turmoil that has been building in my mind for the past definitive 2 months, may finally be on the outswing.

I'm guessing you posted this before you I saw you at 2nd street - given you made the comment about my not feeling well physically.

I'll probably give a ring when I get off work. Maybe I'll try to arrange a visit by the shop to pick up my deposit and the "meet the people" 411 from the shop tonight.

What are you doing later? You should give me a call and we can hang out.
I always enjoy that.

[lilraw]

I sort of have a drawing/reading evening planned. Larry is working on a picture of me and I'm working on John Wayne Gacy. I don't have my cell phone with me...but I'm sure you can find me....

We are probably leaving early today, though. It's dead as fuck!

[jazzvandoren]

I'll hope I can find you - I've tried and failed in the past.

I'm at Uncle Mike's house now.

In case you read this before you leave, also check your email.

Re: Her words always make me feel a bit less blue, so To You, Fm. Me

[jazzvandoren]

WHAT?

Thanks...I think

[patriotdancer03]

never mind...

let's leave it at I hope you're feeling better...

it was just a song i was listening to and thought you might dig if you heard it...