My Personal Failures

[jb83]

My dear friends back in Michigan sometimes laugh at me when I say they need to pick up the phone and call me once in awhile. So, many of my friends who were so importmant to me, Mark D, Bill, Prescott, DJ, and countless others. Sometimes though I feel as if I fail as a friend. I feel like when they need something for whatever reason I am so

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[jshorb]

I found out late November, or early December. And I said all the same things you did. And, well, it sucks.

If you want to talk to someone who kept up with Nic, and got a call the week before, and feels deeply saddened as well, you can e-mail me and I'll give you a call. I wouldn't mind at least sharing stories of our different memories.

Sorry you found out so late -
Justin

[bouncehoper]

dude. it is NOT your fault.
i know-i've been there.
when someone's that whipped up they're not thinking about anyone else; they're thinking about their pain and ending it. and unfortunately there's not always something that anyone can say to bring them back. some people are too far.
i'm sorry, man. *hugs*

[mrfaboo]

oh my dear jason

i am so sorry to hear of this news but you DID NOT fail as a friend. there's nothing i can say that can make this situation better and without forcing my views on you. but if you need me, do call.

i love you, buddy

pres

[jb83]

i feel i failed as a friend because i was not there when i should have been, and that i let him moving to DC be my excuse not to put forth an effort. now i have moved away, and there are so many people, yourself included, that i feel like i am losing touch with. add that on top of that news, and you get my current emotional state.

[mss60614]

Jason,

I read this more than a week ago and emotionally wanted to comment immediately. I wanted to tell you what I felt from the heart - that you are wrongly beating yourself up, that you haven't failed at all, that every post I've ever read of yours somehow ties in with friendship and how you value others, that I only wish I knew you in real time - not just electronically - because you seem like such a decent person to know as a friend.

Well, I waited a week to think about it. And nothing feels different with the passing of time and letting head control heart. You are a great guy, Jason. Something you wrote in that last paragraph really says what kind of friend you are - "I was the first person that he came out to, he trusted me." Is it wrong to say that we are judged as friends by how we treat each other in life rather than when we find out they are gone?

Nic loved and respected you in life. And he still does.