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Feb 28, 2006 22:17

I had to write about a hard time in my life for an English class and this is what I wrote: Losing a Friend... This year I lost my best friend Andy. Not because of death, not because he moved, but because of a girl. I used to be best friends with his girlfriend Chelsea. When they broke up I stayed friends with both of them. Soon I drifted away from Chelsea and stayed close friends with Andy. She was very Jealous of our friendship. She always thought that I liked him but I didn't. He was more of a brother to me than anything. I always called him if I had any problems. He was always there for me no matter what the situation, he never judged me or yelled at me. He knew when I just needed to vent and have him listen and when I needed his advice. One day Chelsea and I had a fight and we stopped talking. We are practically enemies now. And this was a perfect opportunity to get in between me and Andy's friendship. She has a hold over Andy that he doesn’t realize. And when she wanted to get back together with him, he took the opportunity with open arms. But there was a catch. She would only go back out with him if he never talked to me again. I went over to his house and he told me all of this. I was very upset and left. He promised me that he wouldn't agree to it and that he wouldn't let her do this. He said that he would find a way around it. I wanted to believe him but in my heart I knew that she would win in the end. Like I said before she has a hold over him. No one can ever break it; he practically worships the ground she walks on. So one day I tried to call him and he didn't answer. Usually he would see that I called and call me back. He didn't answer or call me for a few days so after school one day I went to his school to talk to him. I saw him and he looked at me and walked away. Finally I caught up to him and told him that I knew him and Chelsea were going back out. I asked him if he was aloud to talk to me and he replied with a simple "I dunno." I was devastated. I knew that that meant yes. I called Chelsea and asked her about it. She told me that he agreed to go out with her under those terms. Once again I was devastated. I called my ex-boyfriend Shae and told him about it. He was very angry about it because of the way Chelsea treats him. We had a long talk about it, which helped a little. Then I went home and talked to my friend Zant online and he helped a lot. He told me that there was nothing I could do about it. It was his choice and if he could choose so easily then he wasn't a good friend in the first place. I knew he was right and I quite caring right then. We probably will never be friends again. Chelsea has turned him against me. I don't know why but he hates me now. We used to be so close and then just like that he hates me. I don't know how I ever trusted him with all of my secrets. I have never been so hurt in my life. I trusted him more then I have ever trusted anyone. I don't know if I will ever be able to trust again. I learned that some people were put in our lives to help us and some were put there to hurt us and make us stronger. Andy was meant to make me a stronger person and he did. I've learned not to take life so seriously and to take things as they come. You can't control everything that happens in your life not matter how hard you try. I once read this quote: "People will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends leave footprints in your heart." It is so true he was a true friend to me. And even though he isn’t there for me anymore I will always have our memories
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