Day Twenty One: Sad face

[jccub1]

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

This is the only picture I could find. No one deserves to be treated how this man treated me.
Some people say I'm lucky. I say they wouldn't say that if they'd met me 7 years ago.
I'm not angry anymore; but I am sad.
I wish I could forget; but I'll never be able to.

Comments

[paterson_si]

But why did you let it all happen?

[jccub1]

Other people have asked me this. I've asked myself many times too. I don't believe anyone just 'lets' it happen - it's a combination of many things. In my case it was very gradual - started wonderful and slowly spiraled.

The descent was so subtle I didn't realise what had happened until it was too late. I had been deliberately cut off from everyone and was led to believe what was happening was my own doing and I deserved it (to put it very briefly).

I never saw it coming and never thought it would happen to me. I certainly never would have 'let' it happen if I'd known what was waiting for me. But I eventually found an inner strength I didn't know I had...so I have to be thankful for that :)

[paterson_si]

Sounds like a very cruel, rude story. I am happy you managed to crawl out of it, Clarkie!

hugs

[jccub1]

Thank you Tomaz
*hugs*

[devil_cub52]

Need me to come down there with my soprano friends and take care of this for you?!
It would be my honor - who would want to hurt my new friend?!?

[jccub1]

I've always wanted heavies! :D

[tupper26]

I'm very sorry to hear that anyone ever treated you badly! I can relate. I haven't dated anyone seriously in quite some time. Rather than get angry, or sad, I've grieved the loss, then set to becoming the best me I can become. I've made some solid strives, and I'm proud of what I've accomplished. I still feel the loss, but it doesn't sting anymore. I remember all the good I was capable of that helped him heal, move on, and find happiness, albiet with someone(s) else.

I tell myself that if I can essentially work myself out of that job and help someone else heal and recover so well, I can do the same for myself.

Sadly, Mr. Right doesn't seem to be forthcoming, but I haven't totally given up hope. I remember. I learned. I will never make those mistakes again.

[jccub1]

Well said - you certainly CAN do the same for yourself! And you should!

As for Mr Right - he always turns up when you least expect it - cliched but true :)

[kirbymiles]

I think many of us have similiar pictures. I know I do and your story sounds to much like mine.

As much as I want to, I will never forget.

[jccub1]

Hugs to you mate - own it, don't let it own you - that's what I was told :)

[djmadadam]

*snugglehuglove*