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No more
As I sit trying to to either scream or cry in frustration I've come to the point where I'm over it.
Done.
I can't take the bullshit anymore.
I just signed a lease for a new apartment and I'm ready to leave all of this drama behind me. I just have to make it until August.
I can't deal with this anymore. I'm killing myself and making myself sick with ( Read more... ) -
*sigh*
I'm so tired of getting screwed over while I'm being a nice person. I just don't understand why I can't seem to find people who treat me like i deserve to be treated. Its not everyone most of the people I hang out with are awesome, however the select few are ruining it. I mean my roommate screwed me and I had to pay her half of the rent this month ( Read more... ) -
Sabotage!
After months of second guessing I've decided that I need to stop thinking so much. I sabotage myself. It pains me to realize this but its true, I think too much of what people will say. Well not everyone but the people that matter, you know? I could give two fucks about normal society but the one's that are near and dear can make or break how I ( Read more... ) -
My love is rotten to the core...
Weird couple of weeks. Not sure how I feel about something that are going on around me. Most of it is good but some of it is bordering on skecthy.
I am constantly amazed by people and how they interact. That makes me sound kind of like a robot but I'm serious. People act differently around different groups of people and I can't seem to understand ( Read more... ) -
Short poem and a small update.
You must think I’m crazy
Behaving the way I do
Watching and contemplating the people around me.
I’m watching everyone
All the time
To see how they watch everyone else.
I notice thing that no one else sees
File them away and save them for reflection.
You may think I’m quiet
But its because you are so loud
You can’t hear my voice.
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Rattling around in my head
Got a lot of things going on in my head right now. Things bouncing all around. Should I shouldn't I, could I couldn't I. Small fragments slowly driving me insane with wondering. I have the words they're just not in the right order, its just not the right time. Trying to re-learn a part of life after cutting myself off from it for so long. Finding ( Read more... ) -
kdfhgkhga
I am beyond tired. I slept for like 2 hours last night because I had a close/open and I kept waking up because I thought I was going to oversleep. So I walk outside at 4:40am, half asleep, wanting nothing more than to curl up in my nice warm bed again, into the dripping freezing rain. I have to scrape off my car, and while doing so step in a huge ( Read more... ) -
I’m not sure how I feel about this right now.
I'm being a little bitch, not sure why. Let me take that back I know why and it pisses me off. I hate that people/situations from years ago can still effect how you view situations/people today. Blah. Sometimes I wish I could be aggressive in all aspects of my life. I'm the type of person who tells you like it is once I let you into my inner circle ( Read more... ) -
Maybe!
I may be getting a new tattoo this weekend. I want to get it ASAP because its awesome. My friend Roxy got the Triple Goddess symbol tattooed on the back of neck yesterday totally out of the blue. The weird thing is I've been wearing a ring with the symbol on it for 4 years and that I have been wanting to get it tattooed for about a year. She ( Read more... ) -
Well shit
I don't deal well with restlessness, I feel like something is crawling under my skin. I'm off today and I woke up at 8:30 out of the blue and couldn't sleep because I felt like I should be doing something. I can't write, when I put a pen in my hand it feels foreign. I can't settle down to read anything for longer than 10 minutes at a time, which ( Read more... )